7. Bathing In Red

If you come to close
While I'm sleeping
Or host of a nightmare
Don't feed me the blame
You're there every night in my head
Right in my sight as I cut the skin
And lead you to shame
As we hold and make love
I slip on a glove
So I won't stain my hands
As I take you away
When I focus my brain
I see you in vain
I see you bathing in red
And I can't believe
Your killer is me
And I hit my knees
And start to cry
I keep running and hiding and crying
And falling and trying to get away
Screaming and yelling and calling for help
As you die in my arms once again
As I wake in a sweat
Thank God it hasn't happened yet
And I run to you
But you got to close
When I focus my brain
I see you in pain
I see you bathing in red
And I can't believe
Your killer is me
And I hit my knees
And start to cry
I keep running and hiding and crying
And falling and trying to get away
Screaming and yelling and calling for help
As you die in my arms once again
I keep running and hiding and crying
And falling and trying to get away
Screaming and yelling and calling for help
As your running and hiding
And trying to get away
Screaming and yelling and calling for help
As you die in my arms once again

9. Out Of Mind

I can see pieces of memory spitting
Like sparks from a gun that's been fired and hitting
The skull of the soul who was so unsuspecting
And the look in his eye as he's feeling the burn
I can hear flesh as it's being infected
From hot burning lead thats been flying so fast
The sound of the sting as it melts through the skin
And the intake of air that just may be his last
It's happening again
The sleep in my eye is dry blood
It's happening again
I can't hold it back
Hold me
Hold me closer
Tell me
That everything will be fine
Hold me
Hold me closer
Tell me
That I'm not outta my mind
Went to a priest to see what he could tell me
Bout all of the evil that swims in my head
Well I think that his voice had been very relaxing
Cause I fell asleep - now the Father is dead
I started to worry bout what's up ahead
Will I knock on the door of Heaven when I'm dead
Will they know it's not me that I'm not a killer
I don't even know what I did while I'm out
It's happening again
The sleep in my eye is dry blood
It's happening again
I can't hold it back
Show me
Show me reasons
Tell me
Why it's wrong to take lives
Show me
Show me more
Tell me
Why I'm not outta my mind

[Bible passage]

Show me
Show me reasons
Tell me
Why it's wrong to take lives
Show me
Show me more
Tell me
Why I'm not outta my mind

"The Cold" (2010)



1. Hypocrite
2. Take
3. The Cold
4. Black Cloud
5. Blackened Eyes Staring
6. Better Off Dead
7. Falling Short
8. Always
9. K.Y.A.
10. Secret Life

1. Hypocrite

You tell me I'm the devil
Then scratch my flesh with your horns
You tell me do what I say
Don't do what I've done

I can see the way you act and
I can see the way you lie
I can see the truth right through you
Open up your mouth and fly
You say you are better than me
You say you are all supreme
You can't tell the truth in spite of you
And every little step a dream

Hypocrite
Hypocrite
Hypocrite
Hypocrite

Everything I do you tell me
Everything I do is wrong
Lecture all about the evils
Go until I write this song
And make a pile your opinions
Make an observation law
Don't hold back and tell me what you
Hear and feel and spoke and saw

Hypocrite, oh yeah
Hypocrite
Hypocrite
You're nothing but a
Hypocrite
Yeah

Don't know what to do
Don't know where to go
But I know what you're gonna say
Take a stab at all my dreams and visions
Lash out, maybe guilt will wash away

Wash away

Don't know what to do
Don't know where to go
But I know what you're gonna say
Take a stab at all my dreams and visions
Lash out, maybe guilt will wash away

2. Take

See the way you take my soul
Laugh at how you steal my pride
Crush the dreams that I once had
I'll take it all in stride
Give up everything I've worked for
Give you everything you want
Leave behind my friends and past
To watch you walk away

I did it all for you
I gave you more than I had to give
I gave it all to you
I keep on giving and you just take

Take what you want from me
And throw the rest away
See you standing proud
About the way you forced me down
Into the ground

Show me how to fear another
Teach me not to trust again
Always look over my shoulder
Live with what you took from me
No more can I close my eyes
I just see you walk away
I can't clear my head of you
I cry another day

I did it all for you
I gave you more than I had to give
I gave it all to you
I keep on giving and you just take

Take, take, take
Take what you want from me
And throw the rest away
See you standing proud
About the way you forced me down
Into the ground
Take what you need from me
And leave the rest behind
Take what you want
Take it and leave

Take what you want from me
And throw the rest away
See you standing proud
About the way you forced me down
Into the ground

3. The Cold

It all comes down to this
How to hold on to life I once had with you
An addiction like this
The supply slips away without warning
Don't know how to survive
I still need you to fill all the voids inside

You're the blood inside
You're the beat of my soul
You're the breath inside
You're the thought that I hold
You're the blood inside
You're the beat of my soul

How should I keep time from ticking away
Stop tomorrow from coming
How can I hold the craving at bay
So better off when I didn't know
Coming at me so fast I can't run
Years of minutes of seconds of time
Put inside all I am, all I have
Pay the toll to hear what's on my mind

Where do I go from here
The sun doesn't rise where I am
Spring never rises from fall
And the nightingale doesn't sing

Where do I go from here
There is no yellow brick road
No reference for my dreams
And no warmth to hide the cold

The cold
The cold
The cold
The cold

What is left for the time that I have
What is forward for looking to
Every path that I take is washed out
Every star is burnt out to follow
Passing by me so fast motion slow
Years of minutes of seconds of time
Generations learning what I know
Pay the toll to hear what's on my mind

Where do I go from here
The sun doesn't rise where I am
Spring never rises from fall
And the nightingale doesn't sing

Where do I go from here
There is no yellow brick road
No reference for my dreams
And no warmth to hide the cold

4. Black Cloud

I've never screwed anyone
That didn't fuck me
And I don't climb the branch
Of another man's tree
I try not to talk
Behind the back
Never enter into thought
If you're Jew or black
Always pay what I owe
Owe what I pay
Doesn't matter if you're female
Muslim or gay
If you're cool to me
I'll be cool to you
And if you lie to me
I won't be straight with you
I never win the lottery
Never catch a break
When I get money back
You bet it's a mistake
When I gamble
I should just throw it away
I take another hit
But know I should've stayed
The green light goes
To start the race
But the helmet falls down
To cover my face
I spread my wings
And I'm ready to fly
And the wind and thunder clouds
Cover the sky

Why does all the crap come back on me?
When does the barrage of bad luck cease?
How long can the black cloud follow me?
How much of this can I take?
Why does all the crap come back on me?
When does the barrage of bad luck cease?
How long can the black cloud follow me?
How much of this can I take?

Why does the black cloud follow me?
Why does the black cloud follow me?

5. Blackened Eyes Staring

She can't handle all the evil things
That life has come to give
Taking everything she loves
Destroying the home where she lives
Death does her no favors
Sparing her and killing everyone else
Leaving her to face the world alone
And leaving her by herself

Wreath of dead roses
Wrapped around her head
Blackened eyes staring
Not at me, but through instead
There's an evil in her smile
That gets me high

What has happened here
She looks like she once could fly
You can see the fear
She looks like she once could fly
Until she dies

Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead

Every time her eyes are open
All she sees is blood and fear
Can only dream of jagged steel
Ripping her from ear to ear
Wishing more and more every day
To be dead and gone and free
Wishing more and more every day
To be a little dead fairy

Wreath of dead roses
Wrapped around her head
Blackened eyes staring
Not at me, but through instead
There's an evil in her smile
That gets me high

What has happened here
She looks like she once could fly
You can see the fear
She looks like she once could fly
Until she dies

6. Better Off Dead

Sometimes I feel like just ending it all
Every step a broken leg
Every floor breaks a fall
I can't only not see light
I can't find the tunnel
Life keeps giving me an uphill climb
Without a ladder or a rope
Without a prayer or a hope
I can't only not see light
I can't find the tunnel

I can't find my way
Don't know if I'll see tomorrow
Or the rest of today
I can't raise my head
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Better off dead
Better off dead
I can't only not see light
I'm better off dead

Every time we try to step ahead
Step ahead
There's a force that holds us down
Holds us back, keeps us in
And I pray every day
That things will take a turn
That tomorrow brings me hope
That today will slip away
I can't only not see light
I can't close my eyes

I have lost my way
Don't know about tomorrow
Or the best of today
I won't raise my head
And so I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Better off dead
Better off dead
I can't only not see light
I'm better off dead

I can't only not see light
I'm better off dead

Sometimes I feel like I've ended it all
Every step a shooting pain
Every floor breaks a fall
I can't only not see light
I'm better off dead
Better off dead
Better off

So stick my body in the ground
And find a priest and gather round
And say a little prayer to god
Throw some flowers on the sod cause
I will never see light
And I'm better off dead

7. Falling Short

Can you feel the drive?
Can you feel the push?
Does the blood start to boil
Subconscious making a fist
Every face a target
Every life a prize
Just the thought of pain
Keeps your anger alive

I can feel my heart
Breaking in pieces
Nothing but sorrow
Haunting inside
Loneliness killing me
Ever so slowly
Blade to my throat
And prepare to die

Is it worth my life?
Is it worth your life?
Is it worth wasting the time?
Can it be all so
Thought overtaking?
Can we just let it slip by?

Hands are shaking mouth is dry and
My heart breaking watching you die
Spinning backward falling short of
Pitching in to save your life

Bare to taste it
Bare to feel it
Bare to live
Grit your teeth
Grit your clench
Grit and bare
Feel the glory
Feel the pain
Feel the fade
Crawl to safety
Crawl on your knees
Fall to your death

Hands are shaking mouth is dry and
My heart breaking watching you die
Spinning backward falling short of
Pitching in to save your life

I have felt my heart
Crumble to pieces
Finally sorrow
Ventures outside
Loneliness walking
Away from its kill
Blade in my throat
I'm left to die