8. Endogenisis

There is only one way out
One word left to shout
The last little slope to climb
Then my feet slip again
Your threatening voice
Gets me back up on my feet again

I will find the truth within your skin
You keep feeding me distractions
Feeding me lies
But I know the truth is there
In fragments
in bits
and pieces

Tall and slender
But your eyes are lustreless
Your facade may glimmer
Your surface may be smooth silk
You've been convinced of your own illusions
But your weary eyes unveil a sinner

Running...
Steadily you hunt me down
Until my feet collapse
Gasping...
You never rest
Struggling to breathe
You try to sink me in the mud

My dearest enslaved
Shackled
Locked up in my cage
My dearest enslaved
Fragile beauty depraved

9. Bird

A friendly push
Off the cliff - is all I need
A sudden change
Or a smile
Could make me feel alive,
Anything to take the ignorance away

There is a hole in my chest
where my heart used to be
If you're looking for emptiness,
I'm what you need
Colder and darker and worse
Sometimes life's just a curse

My ashen face
My snow-white skin
Perfect Isolation
Time - slips
My asylum years
Will end in silence
Without tears

All illusions lost
All colours faded
A senseless pain
Transparent
Imperfection
Falling
Like a sparrow to the ground
Leave no trace of life

Music as my ship set sails
Through the window
From the street
Divine
Goodbye

Leave no marks
upon my skin
Dreamless sleep
The convent walls on fire
Goodbye

Dreams and betrayal - hand in hand
Falling apart in a drug wonderland
Unable to move and talk
Unable to care at all...

Somebody is knocking at my door
Somebody - I think I have seen before
I'm trembled and shaken and stirred
I wish I could be a bird

Illumination (2007)



1. Mercyside
2. Sanguine Sky
3. Open Ground
4. The Ravens
5. Destination Departure
6. Down
7. Fate
8. Lotus
9. Sacrilege
10. In The Wake
11. Ab Initio
12. Deadlands

1. Mercyside

You can hate me for
All the things I do
You should let my heart go
Whatever you decide to do
You can make me bleed
You can make me cry
You can make me fall
You can make me live or die
And I wonder how
And you wonder why

For years our world has been falling apart
But we're tied up by words
The surface is smooth and cold
But underneath the blood always boils

It's getting harder
Getting worse now
Everytime
We're growing colder
Digging deeper
In my mind

You laughed, but your smile never reached your eyes
You cried, but your eyes never shed a tear
And I wonder how
You laughed, and you untied your hair
There are things to do
Things we never could tell

Name me
Use me
Blame me
Every time you hurt
Your favours are not what I deserve

2. Sanguine Sky

My blood is tainted; azure blue
A setting sun bleeding
Into an ocean of tears, for you

It's an exodus from the dark
The night is breathing; the night is exhaling
Falling, falling -- up a staircase
Towards the moon, the stars, and a Venus-kissed Mars

Blood runs south
as the days grow darker
and this fight is eating at me
I see the dead awaken
My fate forsaken; I'm free

I am talking on a hidden line
She says she's feeding; she says she's dead
She says -- there is a downward spiral
From the moon, the stars, the ever-warring Mars

3. Open Ground

Digging in the ground
Digging in the mud
Sweat streams down my face
My spit tastes like blood

Hide me with locks from your hair
I cannot breathe

Bleeding...
Dying...
Digging...
Falling apart
The torch went out
The room went dark

Running in the fog
Crawling through the mud
Tears fall down my face
My spit tastes like blood

Cover me with locks from your hair

Through my mind
My driven mind
We both knew
Love is blind
Insanity is always near

Deep in my bag full of fear
I cannot see
The pain that trigger your screams
I cannot see

From the corner of my eye
I feel them closing in
I know they caught the scent of me
And then they went for me...

I chose for you to stay with me

4. The Ravens

Only ashes and bones remain
My hair is wet, my eyes are sore
The past has been fed to the flames
I cannot breathe anymore

I try to stand on my feet, but I fall
I try to walk, but I crawl
Life -- as we knew it, is over
And you are gone
Forever gone...

I will not bend to a cross
I will not kneel at your feet

Greed and anger
Made us younger
Couldn't save us when the tower fell
All my strength and all my hunger
All is lost
And none will live to tell

I rest in the ruins of days gone by
Of young affection and velvet sky
A slave to greed...
I do not feel regret anymore
I sense the presence of birds
Encircling me...
And I am gone
Forever gone...

Til jord skal vi bli

Dark is the night
Dead is the moon
I will not kneel

I'd rather die
Facing my doom
I will not kneel

5. Destination Departure

Caressing the anger
Nothing will ever be the same again
At your most beautiful
At your most beautiful

This is my destination
Left behind in desolation
At your most beautiful
At your most beautiful

Leave me
You talk like you know
But you don't and it shows
She should have outlived me
I've listened before but I can't anymore
So just leave me
I tried so hard to find something that I could believe in
But there's nothing there so there's nothing to fear

Who's gonna be here if you want me to leave?
Who's gonna be here?

Caressing the anger
This is my destination
At your most beautiful
At your most beautiful

Leave me
You talk like you know
But you don't and it shows
She should have outlived me
I've listened before but I can't anymore
So just leave me
I tried so hard to find something that I could believe in
But there's nothing there and there's no one who cares

Who's gonna be here if you want me to leave?
Who's gonna be here if you want me to leave?
Who's gonna end it when you cannot make it stop?
Can you hang on for today?

6. Down

My violent mood swings peak
And my hands are as heavy as rocks
I have no time and no space
I am falling behind
Just take me home

My patience has all run out
And I feel like yelling; - it is too much
I have abandoned all charm and all grace
I have fallen behind
There is no god

The night is cursed
Loud and blurred
Still it rains
It rains like hell

Rain on empty shells

My violent mood swings peak
And my hands are as heavy as rocks
I have no time and no space
I have fallen behind
There is no god

Screaming voices
Ring in my ears
I don't want to know their names

7. Fate

I've been trying to participate
in masquerades
The throne's been empty for too long
Paradise for those who play along
and the fortunate ones

I've been listening to the voice
at night
And he is right
I am the chosen one
And my shepherd, he has paid my ride
I will go with a smile

I've been begging for the public eye
Now watch me fly
Can you see what I've become
So expose me - I shall be released
When the flesh paints the street

I was walking through the valley of
the living dead
Did not count the tears I shed
Always chasing those elusive dreams
A drop of blood in the stream