The Temporary the All   
   
   
CHANGE and chancefulness in my flowering youthtime,      
Set me sun by sun near to one unchosen;      
Wrought us fellowly, and despite divergence,      
    Friends interblent us.      
   
“Cherish him can I while the true one forthcome—           5   
Come the rich fulfiller of my prevision;      
Life is roomy yet, and the odds unbounded.”      
    So self-communed I.      
   
Thwart my wistful way did a damsel saunter,      
Fair not fairest, good not best of her feather;           10   
“Maiden meet,” held I, “till arise my forefelt      
    Wonder of women.”      
   
Long a visioned hermitage deep desiring,      
Tenements uncouth I was fain to house in;      
“Let such lodging be for a breath-while,” thought I,           15   
    “Soon a more seemly.      
   
“Then, high handiwork will I make my life-deed,      
Truth and Light outshow; but the ripe time pending,      
Intermissive aim at the thing sufficeth.”      
    Thus I … But lo, me!           20   
   
Mistress, friend, place, aims to be bettered straightway,      
Bettered not has Fate or my hand’s achieving;      
Sole the showance those of my onward earth-track—      
    Never transcended!

Amabel   
   
   
I MARKED her ruined hues,      
Her custom-straitened views,      
And asked, “Can there indwell      
    My Amabel?”      
   
I looked upon her gown,           5   
Once rose, now earthen brown;      
The change was like the knell      
    Of Amabel.      
   
Her step’s mechanic ways      
Had lost the life of May’s;           10   
Her laugh, once sweet in swell,      
    Spoilt Amabel.      
   
I mused: “Who sings the strain      
I sang ere warmth did wane?      
Who thinks its numbers spell           15   
    His Amabel?”—      
   
Knowing that, though Love cease,      
Love’s race shows undecrease;      
All find in dorp or dell      
    An Amabel.           20   
   
—I felt that I could creep      
To some housetop, and weep,      
That Time the tyrant fell      
    Ruled Amabel!      
   
I said (the while I sighed           25   
That love like ours had died),      
“Fond things I’ll no more tell      
    To Amabel,      
   
“But leave her to her fate,      
And fling across the gate,           30   
‘Till the Last Trump, farewell,      
    O Amabel!’”


1865.

Hap   
   
   
IF but some vengeful god would call to me      
  From up the sky, and laugh: “Thou suffering thing,      
Know that thy sorrow is my ecstasy,      
  That thy love’s loss is my hate’s profiting!”      
   
Then would I bear, and clench myself, and die,           5   
  Steeled by the sense of ire unmerited;      
Half-eased, too, that a Powerfuller than I      
  Had willed and meted me the tears I shed.      
   
But not so. How arrives it joy lies slain,      
  And why unblooms the best hope ever sown?           10   
—Crass Casualty obstructs the sun and rain,      
  And dicing Time for gladness casts a moan….      
  These purblind Doomsters had as readily strown      
Blisses about my pilgrimage as pain.


1866.

“In Vision I Roamed”   
   
   
IN vision I roamed the flashing Firmament,      
  So fierce in blazon that the Night waxed wan,      
As though with an awed sense of such ostent;      
  And as I thought my spirit ranged on and on      
   
In footless traverse through ghast heights of sky,           5   
  To the last chambers of the monstrous Dome,      
Where stars the brightest here to darkness die:      
  Then, any spot on our own Earth seemed Home!      
   
And the sick grief that you were far away      
  Grew pleasant thankfulness that you were near,           10   
  Who might have been, set on some outstep sphere,      
Less than a Want to me, as day by day      
I lived unware, uncaring all that lay      
  Locked in that Universe taciturn and drear.


1866.

 At a Bridal   
   
   
WHEN you paced forth, to wait maternity,      
  A dream of other offspring held my mind,      
  Compounded of us twain as Love designed;      
Rare forms, that corporate now will never be!      
   
Should I, too, wed as slave to Mode’s decree,           5   
  And each thus found apart, of false desire,      
  A stolid line, whom no high aims will fire      
As had fired ours could ever have mingled we;      
   
And, grieved that lives so matched should miscompose,      
  Each mourn the double waste; and question dare           10   
To the Great Dame whence incarnation flows,      
  Why those high-purposed children never were:      
  What will she answer? That she does not care      
If the race all such sovereign types unknows.


1866.

Postponement   
   
   
SNOW-BOUND in woodland, a mournful word,      
Dropt now and then from the bill of a bird,      
Reached me on wind-wafts; and thus I heard,      
        Wearily waiting:—      
   
“I planned her a nest in a leafless tree,           5   
But the passers eyed and twitted me,      
And said: ‘How reckless a bird is he,      
        Cheerily mating!’      
   
“Fear-filled, I stayed me till summer-tide,      
In lewth of leaves to throne her bride;           10   
But alas! her love for me waned and died,      
        Wearily waiting.      
   
“Ah, had I been like some I see,      
Born to an evergreen nesting-tree,      
None had eyed and twitted me,           15   
        Cheerily mating!”


1866.

 A Confession to a Friend in Trouble   
   
   
YOUR troubles shrink not, though I feel them less      
  Here, far away, than when I tarried near;      
I even smile old smiles—with listlessness—      
  Yet smiles they are, not ghastly mockeries mere.      
   
A thought too strange to house within my brain           5   
  Haunting its outer precincts I discern:      
  —That I will not show zeal again to learn      
Your griefs, and, sharing them, renew my pain….      
   
It goes, like murky bird or buccaneer      
That shapes its lawless figure on the main,           10   
And each new impulse tends to make outflee      
The unseemly instinct that had lodgment here;      
Yet, comrade old, can bitterer knowledge be      
Than that, though banned, such instinct was in me!


1866

 Neutral Tones   
   
   
WE stood by a pond that winter day,      
And the sun was white, as though chidden of God,      
And a few leaves lay on the starving sod,      
  —They had fallen from an ash, and were gray.      
   
Your eyes on me were as eyes that rove           5   
Over tedious riddles solved years ago;      
And some words played between us to and fro—      
  On which lost the more by our love.      
   
The smile on your mouth was the deadest thing      
Alive enough to have strength to die;           10   
And a grin of bitterness swept thereby      
  Like an ominous bird a-wing….      
   
Since then, keen lessons that love deceives,      
And wrings with wrong, have shaped to me      
Your face, and the God-curst sun, and a tree,           15   
  And a pond edged with grayish leaves.


1867

She, At His Funeral   
   
   
THEY bear him to his resting-place—      
  In slow procession sweeping by;      
I follow at a stranger’s space;      
  His kindred they, his sweetheart I.      
Unchanged my gown of garish dye,           5   
  Though sable-sad is their attire;      
But they stand round with griefless eye,      
  Whilst my regret consumes like fire!


187–.

Her Initials   
   
   
UPON a poet’s page I wrote      
  Of old two letters of her name;      
Part seemed she of the effulgent thought      
  Whence that high singer’s rapture came.      
—When now I turn the leaf the same           5   
  Immortal light illumes the lay      
But from the letters of her name      
  The radiance has died away.


1869.