3

   'Here, take it. Christ, Gard, are you all right?'
   'I'll be fine,' Gardener said, his voice slightly muffled by her handkerchief. He doubled it and settled it over his nose, pressing down firmly on the bridge. He tilted his head up, and the slimy taste of blood began to fill his throat. 'I've had worse ones than this.' So he had … but not for a long time.
   They had moved back about ten paces from the edge of the cut and seated themselves on a felled tree. Bobbi was looking at him anxiously.
   'Christ, Gard, I didn't know anything like that was going to happen. You believe me, don't you?'
   'Yes,' Gardener said. He didn't know precisely what Bobbi had been expecting … but not that. 'Did you hear the music?'
   'I didn't exactly hear it,' Anderson said, 'I got it secondhand from your head. It just about ruptured me.'
   'Did it?'
   'Yeah.' Bobbi laughed, a little shakily. 'When I'm around a lot of people, I turn 'em off – '
   'You can do that?' He took the handkerchief off his nose. It was sopping with blood – Gardener could have twisted it between his fingers and wrung blood out of it in a gory little stream. But the flow was finally slowing down … thank God. He dropped the handkerchief and tore the tail off his shirt.
   'Yes,' Anderson said. 'Well … not entirely. I can't turn the thoughts completely off, but I can dial them way down, so it's like … well, like a faint whisper at the bottom of my mind.'
   'That's incredible.'
   'That's necessary,' Anderson said grimly. 'If I couldn't do it, I don't think I'd ever leave this goddam house again. I was in Augusta on Saturday and I opened my mind up to see what it'd be like.'
   'And you found out.'
   'Yeah, I found out. It was like having a hurricane in your head. And the scary thing was how hard it was to get the door shut again.'
   'This door … barrier … whatever … how do you put it up?'
   Anderson shook her head. 'Can't explain, any more than a guy who can wiggle his ears can explain how he does it.' She cleared her throat and looked down at her shoes for a moment – muddy workboots, Gardener saw. They looked as if they hadn't been off her feet much in the last couple of weeks.
   Bobbi grinned a little. The grin was embarrassed and painfully humorous at the same time – and in that moment she looked completely like the old Bobbi. The one who had been his friend after nobody else wanted to be. It was Bobbi's aw-shucks look – Gardener had seen it the very first time he met her, when Bobbi was a freshman English student and Gardener a freshman English instructor banging apathetically away at a PhD thesis he probably knew even then he was never going to finish. Hungover and feeling rather bilious, Gardener had asked his bunch of new freshmen what the dative case was. No one offered an answer and Gardener had been about to take great pleasure in blowing them all out of the water when Anderson, Roberta, Row 5, Seat 3, raised her hand and took a shot at it. Her answer was diffident … but correct. Not surprisingly, she turned out to be the only one of them who'd had Latin in high school. The same aw-shucks grin he was seeing now had been on Bobbi's face then, and Gard felt a wave of affection sweep over him. Shit, Bobbi had been through a tough time … but this was Bobbi. No question about it.
   'I keep the barriers up most of the time anyway,' she was saying. 'Otherwise it's like peeking in windows. You remember me telling you my mailman, Paulson, has got something going on the side?'
   Gardener nodded.
   'That isn't anything I want to know. Or if some poor slob is a klepto, or if some guy's a secret drinker … how's your nose?'
   'Bleeding's stopped.' Gardener put down the bloody piece of shirting beside Anderson's handkerchief. 'So you keep the blocks up, huh?'
   'Yes. For whatever reasons – moral, ethical, or just to keep from going batshit with the noise, I keep them up. With you I let them down because I wasn't getting squat even when I tried. I did try a couple of times, and if that makes you mad I understand, but it was only curiosity, because no one else is … blank … like that.'
   'No one?'
   'Nope. There must be some reason for it, something like having a really rare blood type. Maybe that even is it.'
   'Sorry, I'm type O.'
   Anderson laughed and got up. 'You feel up to going back, Gard?'
   It's the plate in my head, Bobbi. He almost said it, and then, for some reason, decided not to. The plate in my head is keeping you out. I don't know how I know that, but I do.
   'Yeah, I'm fine,' he said. 'I could use
   (a drink)
   a cup of coffee, that's all.'
   'You got it. Come on.'

4

   While part of her had been reacting to Gard with the warmth and genuine good feeling she had always felt for him, even during the worst times, another part of her (a part that was not, strictly speaking, Bobbi Anderson at all anymore) had stood coldly off to one side, watching everything carefully. Assessing. Questioning. And the first question was whether
   (they)
   she really wanted Gardener around at all. She
   (they)
   had thought at first that all her problems would now be solved, Gard would join her on the dig and she would no longer have to do this … well, this first part … all alone. He was right about one thing: trying to do it all by herself had nearly killed her. But the change she had expected in him hadn't happened. Only that distressing nosebleed.
   He won't touch it again if it makes his nose bleed like that. He won't touch it and he certainly won't go inside it.
   It may not come to that. After all, Peter never touched it. Peter didn't want to go near it, but his eye … and the age reversal …
   It's not the same. He's a man, not an old beagle dog. And, face it, Bobbi, except for the nosebleed and that blast of music, there was absolutely no change.
   No immediate change.
   Is it the steel plate in his skull?
   Maybe … but why should something like that make any difference?
   That cold part of Bobbi didn't know; she only knew that it could have. The ship itself broadcast some kind of tremendous, almost animate force; whatever had come in it was dead, she was sure she hadn't lied about that, but the ship itself was almost alive, broadcasting that enormous energy-pattern through its metal skin … and, she knew, the broadcast area widened its umbrella a little with every inch of its surface she dug free. That energy had communicated itself to Gard. But then it had -what?
   Been converted somehow. First converted and then blown off in a short, ferociously powerful radio transmission.
   So what do I do?
   She didn't know, but she knew it didn't matter.
   They would tell her.
   When the time came, they would tell her.
   In the meantime, he would bear watching. But if only she could read him! It would be so much simpler if she could fucking read him!
   A voice responded coldly: Get him drunk. Then you'll be able to read him. Then you'll be able to read him just fine.

5

   They had come out on the Tomcat, which did not fly at all but rolled along the ground just as it always had – but instead of the former racket and roar of its engine, it now rolled in a complete silence that was somehow ghastly.
   They came out of the woods and bumped along the edge of the garden. Anderson parked the Tomcat where it had been that morning.
   Gardener glanced up at the sky, which was beginning to cloud over again, and said: 'You better put it in the shed, Bobbi.'
   'It'll be all right,' she said shortly. She pocketed the key and started toward the house. Gardener glanced toward the shed, started after Bobbi, then looked back. There was a big Kreig padlock on the shed door. Another new addition. The woods, you should pardon the pun, seemed to be full of them.
   What have you got in there? A time machine that runs on Penlites? What's the New Improved Bobbi got in there?

6

   When he came into the house, Bobbi was rummaging in the fridge. She came up with a couple of beers.
   'Were you serious about coffee, or do you want one of these?'
   'How about a Coke?' Gardener asked. 'Flying saucers go better with Coke, that's my motto.' He laughed rather wildly.
   'Sure,' Bobbi said, then stopped in the act of returning the cans of beer and grabbing two cans of Coke. 'I did, didn't IT
   'Huh?'
   ‘I took you out there and showed it to you. The ship. Didn't I?’
   Jesus, Gardener thought. Jesus Christ.
   For a moment, standing there with the bottles in her hands, she looked like someone with Alzheimer's disease.
   'Yes,' Gardener said, feeling his skin grow cold. 'You did.'
   'Good,' Bobbi said, relieved. 'I thought I did.'
   'Bobbi? You all right?'
   'Sure,' Anderson said, and then added offhandedly, as if it were a thing of little or no importance: 'It's just that I can't remember much from when we left the house until now. But I guess it doesn't really matter, does it? Here's your Coke, Gard. Let's drink to life on other worlds, what do you say?'

7

   So they drank to other worlds and then Anderson asked him what they should do with the spaceship she had stumbled over in the woods behind her house.
   'We're not going to do anything. You're going to do something.'
   'I already am, Gard,' she said gently.
   'Of course you are,' he said a little testily, 'but I'm talking about some final disposition. I'll be happy to give you all the advice you want – us drunken, broken-down poets are great at giving advice – but in the end, you're going to do something. Something a little more far-reaching than just digging it up. Because it's yours. It's down on your land and it's yours.'
   Anderson looked shocked. 'You don't really think that thing belongs to anyone, do you? Why, because Uncle Frank left me this place in his will? Because he had a clear title going back to part of a crown parcel that King George III swiped from the French after the French had swiped it from the Indians? Good Christ, Gard, that thing was fifty million years old when the forebears of the whole damned human race were squatting on their hunkers in caves and picking their noses!'
   'I'm sure that's very true,' Gardener said dryly, 'but it doesn't change the law. And, anyway, are you going to sit there and try to tell me you're not possessive of it?'
   Anderson looked both upset and thoughtful.
   'Possessive? No – I wouldn't say that. It's responsibility I feel, not possessiveness.'
   'Well, whatever. But since you asked my opinion, I'll give it to you. Call Limestone Air Force Base. Tell whoever answers that you've found an unidentified object down on your land that looks like an advanced flying machine of some sort. You might have some trouble at first, but you'll convince them. Then -'
   Bobbi Anderson laughed. She laughed long and hard and loud. It was genuine laughter, and there was nothing mean about it, but it made Gardener feel acutely uncomfortable all the same. She laughed until tears streamed down her face. He felt himself stiffening.
   'I'm sorry,' she said, seeing his expression. 'It's just that I can't believe I'm hearing this from you, of all people. You know … it's just . . .' She snorted laughter again. 'Well, it's a shock. Like having a Baptist preacher advise drinking as a cure for lust.'
   'I don't understand what you mean.'
   'Sure you do. I'm listening to the guy who got arrested at Seabrook with a gun in his pack, the guy who thinks the government won't really be happy until we all glow in the dark like radium watches, tell me to just call up the Air Force so they can come down here and take charge of an interstellar spacecraft.'
   'It's your land-'
   'Shit, Gard! My land is as vulnerable to the US government's right of eminent domain as anyone else's. Eminent domain's what gets turnpikes built.'
   'And sometimes nuclear reactors.'
   Bobbi sat down again and looked at Gardener in level silence.
   'Think about what you're saying,' she said softly. 'Three days after I made a call like that, neither the land nor the ship would be “mine” anymore. Six days after, they'd have barbed wire strung around the whole place and sentries posted every fifty feet. Six weeks after, I think you'd probably find eighty per cent of Haven's population bought out, kicked out … or simply lost. They could do it, Gard. You know they could. What it comes down to is this: you want me to pick up the phone and call the Dallas Police.'
   'Bobbi – '
   'Yes. That's what it boils down to. I've found an alien spacecraft and you want me to turn it over to the Dallas Police. Do you think they're going to come down here and say, "Please come to Washington with us, Ms Anderson, the Joint Chiefs of Staff are very anxious to hear your ideas on this matter, not only because you own -well, used to own – the land the thing is on, but because the Joint Chiefs always poll western writers before they decide what they should do about such things. Also, the President wants you to pop around to the White House so he can get your thinking. In addition, he wants to tell you how much he liked Rimfire Christmas. "'
   Anderson threw back her head and this time the laughter she uttered was wild, hysterical, and quite creepy. Gardener barely noticed. Did he really think they were going to come down here and be polite? With something as potentially enormous as this on the line? The answer was no. They would take the land. They would gag him and Bobbi … but even that might not be enough to make them feel comfortable. Could be they'd wind up someplace like a weird cross between a Russian gulag and a posh Club Med resort. All the beads are free, and the only catch is, you never get out.
   Or even that might not be enough … so mourners please omit flowers. Then and only then could the ship's new caretakers sleep easy at night.
   After all, it wasn't exactly an artifact, like an Etruscan vase or mine balls dug out of the ground at the site of some long-ago Civil War battle, was it? The woman who had found it had subsequently managed to power her entire house on D-cells … and he was now ready to believe that, even if the new gear on the Tomcat didn't work yet, it soon would.
   And, what, exactly, would make it work? Microchips? Semiconductors? No. Bobbi was the extra added ingredient, the New Improved Bobbi Anderson. Bobbi. Or maybe it was anybody who got close to the thing. And a thing like that … well, you couldn't let an ordinary private citizen hold on to it, now could you?
   'Whatever else it is,' he muttered, 'the goddam thing must be one hell of a brain booster. It's turned you into a genius.'
   'No. An idiot savant,' Anderson said quietly.
   'What?'
   'Idiot savant. They've got maybe half a dozen of them down at Pineland – that's the state facility for the severely retarded. I worked there for two summers on a work-study program while I was in college. There was a guy who could multiply two six-digit numbers in his head and give you a correct answer in less than five seconds … and he was just as apt to piss in his pants while he was doing it as not. There was a twelve-year-old kid who was hydrocephalic. His head was as big as a prize pumpkin. But he could set perfectly justified type at the rate of a hundred and sixty words a minute. Couldn't talk, couldn't read, couldn't think, but he could set type like a hurricane.'
   Anderson pawed a cigarette out of the pack and lit it. Her eyes looked steadily at Gardener out of her thin, haggard face.
   'That's what I am. An idiot savant. That's all I am, and they'd know it. Those things – customizing the typewriter, fixing the water heater – I only remember them in bits and pieces. When I'm doing them, everything seems as clear as a bell. But later – ' She looked pleadingly at Gardener. 'Do you get it?'
   Gardener nodded.
   'It's coming from the ship, like radio transmissions from a broadcast tower.
   But just because a radio can pick up transmissions and send them to a human ear, it's not talking. The government would be happy to take me, lock me up somewhere, and then to cut me into little pieces to see if there had been any physical changes … just as soon as my unfortunate accident gave them a reason to do an autopsy, that is.'
   'Are you sure you're not reading my mind, Bobbi?'
   'No. But do you really think they'd scruple at wasting some people over a thing like this?'
   Gardener slowly shook his head.
   'So taking your advice would amount to this,' Anderson said. 'First, call the Dallas Police; then get taken into custody by the Dallas Police; then get killed by the Dallas Police.'
   Gard looked at her, troubled, and then said, 'All right. I cry uncle. But what's the alternative? You have to do something. Christ, the thing is killing you.'
   'What?'
   'You've lost thirty pounds, how's that for a start?'
   'Thir – 'Anderson looked startled and uneasy. 'No, Gard, no way. Fifteen, maybe, but I was getting love-handles anyway, and – '
   'Go weigh yourself,' Gardener said. 'If you can get the needle over ninetyfive, even with your boots on, I'll eat the scale. Lose a few more pounds and you'll get sick. The state you're in, you could go into heartbeat arrhythmia and die in two days.'
   'I needed to lose some weight. And I was -'
   '– too busy to eat, was that what you were going to say?'
   'Well, not exactly in those w – '
   'When I saw you last night, you looked like a survivor of the Bataan death march. You knew who I was, and that was all you knew. You're still not tracking. Five minutes after we got back in here from looking at your admittedly amazing find, you were asking me if you'd taken me to see it yet.'
   Bobbi's eyes were still on the table, but he could see her expression: it was set and sullen.
   He touched her gently. 'All I'm saying is that no matter how wonderful that thing in the woods is, it's done things to your body and mind that have been terrible for you.'
   Bobbi drew away from him. 'If you're saying I'm crazy
   'No, I'm not saying you're crazy, for God's sake! But you could get crazy if you don't slow down. Do you deny you've been having blackouts?'
   'You're cross-examining me, Gard.'
   'And for a woman who was asking my advice fifteen minutes ago, you're being a pretty fucking hostile witness.'
   They glared at each other across the table for a moment.
   Anderson gave first. 'Blackouts isn't the right word. Don't try to equate what happens to you when you drink too much with what's been happening to me. They're not the same.'
   'I'm not going to argue semantics with you, Bobbi. That's a sidetrack and you know it. The thing out there is dangerous. That's what seems important to me.'
   Anderson looked up at him. Her face was unreadable. 'You think it is,' she said, the words making neither a question nor a declarative sentence – they came out perfectly flat and inflectionless.
   'You haven't just been getting or receiving ideas,' Gardener said. 'You've been driven.'
   'Driven.' Anderson's expression did not change.
   Gardener rubbed at his forehead. 'Driven, yes. Driven the way a bad, stupid man will drive a horse until it drops dead in the traces … then stand over it and whip the carcass because the damned nag had the nerve to die. A man like that is dangerous to horses, and whatever there is in that ship … I think it's dangerous to Bobbi Anderson. If I hadn't shown up.
   'What? If you hadn't shown up, what?'
   'I think you'd still be at it right now, working day and night, not eating … and that by this weekend you'd have been dead.'
   'I think not,' Bobbi said coolly, 'but just for the sake of argument, let's say you're right. I'm on track again now.'
   'You're not on track again, and you're not all right.'
   That mulish look was back on her face, that look which said Gard was talking trash Bobbi would just as soon not hear.
   'Look,' Gardener said, 'I'm with you on at least one thing, all the way. This is the biggest, most important, utterly mind-blowing thing that's ever happened. When it comes out, the headlines in the New York Times are going to make it look like the National Enquirer. People are going to change their fucking religions over this, do you know it?'
   'Yes. I
   'This isn't a powderkeg; it's an A-bomb. Do you know that?'
   'Yes,' Anderson said again.
   'Then get that pissed-off look off your face. If we're going to talk about it, let's fucking talk about it.'
   Anderson sighed. 'Yeah. Okay. Sorry.'
   'I admit I was wrong about calling the Air Force.'
   They spoke together, then laughed together, and that was good.
   Still smiling, Gard said: 'Something has to be done.'
   'I'll buy that,' Anderson said.
   'But, Bobbi, Jesus! I flunked chemistry and barely got through funnybook physics. I don't know exactly, but I do know it's got to be … well … damped out, or something.'
   'We need some experts.'
   'That's right!' Gardener said, seizing on it. 'Experts.'
   'Gard, all the experts do forensic work for the Dallas Police.'
   Gardener threw his hands up in disgust.
   'Now that you're here, I'll be all right. I know it.'
   'It's more likely to go the other way. Next thing, I'll start having blackouts.' Anderson said: 'I think the risk might be worth it.'
   'You've decided already, haven't you?'
   'I've decided what I want to do, yeah. What I want to do is keep quiet about it and finish the dig. Digging it all the way out shouldn't even be necessary. I think that once I – once we, I hope – can free it to a depth of another forty or fifty feet, we could come to a hatchway. If we can get inside . . .' Bobbi's eyes gleamed and Gardener felt an answering excitement rise in his own chest at the thought. All the doubts in the world could not hold back that excitement.
   'If we can get inside?' Gardener repeated.
   'If we can get inside, we can get at the controls. And if we can do that, I'm going to fly that fucker right out of the ground.'
   'You think you can do that?'
   'I know I can.'
   'And then?'
   'Then I don't know,' Bobbi said, shrugging. It was the best, most efficient lie she had told so far … but Gardener thought it was a lie. 'The next thing will happen, that's all I know.'
   'But you say it's my decision to make.'
   'Yes, I do. As far as the outside world goes, all I can do is continue to not tell. If you decide you will, well, what could I do to stop you? Shoot you with Uncle Frank's shotgun? I couldn't. Maybe a character in one of my books could, but I couldn't. This, unfortunately, is real life, where there are no real answers. I guess in real life I'd just stand here watching you go.
   'But whoever you called, Gard – scientists from the university up in Orono, biologists from Jennings Labs, physicists from MIT – whoever you called, it would turn out you'd actually called the Dallas Police. You'd have people coming in here with trucks full of barbed wire and men with guns.' She smiled a little. 'At least I wouldn't have to go to that police-state Club Med alone.'
   'No?'
   'No. You're in it now too. When they flew me out there, you'd be right beside me in the next seat.' The wan smile broadened, but there still wasn't much humor in it. 'Welcome to the monkey-house, my friend. Aren't you glad you came?'
   'Charmed,' Gardener said, and suddenly they were both laughing

8

   When the laughter passed, Gardener found that the atmosphere in Bobbi's kitchen had eased considerably.
   Anderson asked: 'What do you think would happen to the ship if the Dallas Police got hold of it?'
   'Have you ever heard of Hangar 18?' Gard asked.
   'No.
   'According to the stories, Hangar 18's supposed to be part of an Air Force base outside of Dayton. Or Dearborn. Or somewhere. Anywhere, USA. It's where they're supposed to have the bodies of about five little men with fishy faces and gills on their necks. Saucerians. It's just one of those stories you hear, like how somebody found a rat head in his fast-food burger, or how there are alligators in the New York sewers. Only now I sort of wonder if it is a fairy tale. But I think that would be the end.'
   'Can I tell you one of those modern fairy tales, Gard?'
   'Lay it on me.'
   'Have you ever beard the one,' she asked, 'about the guy who invented a pill to take the place of gasoline?'

9

   The sun was going down in a bright blaze of reds and yellows and purples. Gardener sat on a big stump in Bobbi Anderson's back yard, watching it go. They had talked most of the afternoon, sometimes discussing, sometimes reasoning, sometimes arguing. Bobbi had ended the palaver by declaring herself ravenous again. She made a huge pot of spaghetti and broiled some thick pork chops. Gardener had followed her out into the kitchen, wanting to reopen the discussion -thoughts were rolling around in his mind like balls on a pool table. Anderson wouldn't allow it. She offered Gardener a drink, which Gardener, after a long, thoughtful pause, took. The whiskey went down good, and felt good, but he seemed to have no need for a second – well, no great need. Now, sitting here full of food and drink and looking at the sky, he supposed Bobbi had been right. They'd done all the constructive talking there was to do.
   It was decision-time.
   Bobbi had eaten a tremendous supper. 'You're gonna puke, Bobbi,' Gardener said. He was serious but still couldn't help laughing.
   'Nope,' Bobbi said placidly. 'Never felt better.' She burped. 'In Portugal, that's a compliment to the cook.'
   'And after a good lay -'Gard lifted one leg and broke wind. Bobbi laughed gustily.
   They did the dishes ('Haven't invented anything to do this yet, Bobbi?' 'It'll come, give me time.') and then they went into the small, drab living room, which hadn't changed much since the time of Bobbi's uncle, to watch the evening news. None of it was very good. The Middle East was smoldering again, with Israel flying air-strikes against Syrian ground forces in Lebanon (and hitting a school by accident -Gardener winced at the pictures of burned, screaming children), the Russians driving against the mountain strongholds of the Afghan rebels, a coup in South America.
   In Washington, the NRC had issued a list of ninety nuclear facilities in thirty-seven states with safety problems ranging from 'moderate to serious.'
   Moderate to serious, great, Gardener thought, feeling the old impotent rage stir and twist, biting into him like acid. If we lose Topeka, that's moderate. If we lose New York, that's serious.
   He became aware that Bobby was looking at him a little sadly. 'The beat goes on, right?' she said.
   'Right.'
   When the news was over, Anderson told Gardener she was going to bed.
   'At seven-thirty?'
   'I'm still bushed.' And she looked it.
   'Okay. I'll sack out myself pretty soon. I'm tired, too. It's been a crazy couple of days, but I'm not completely sure I'd sleep, the way the stuff is whizzing around in my head.'
   'You want a Valium?'
   He smiled. 'I saw they were still there. I'll pass. You were the one who could have used a trank or two, last couple of weeks.'
   The State of Maine's price for going along with Nora's decision not to press charges was that Gardener should go into a counseling program. The program had lasted six months; the Valium was apparently going to go on forever. Gardener hadn't actually taken any in almost three years, but every now and then – usually when he was going traveling – he filled the prescription. Otherwise, some computer might burp out his name and a psychologist picking up a few extra bucks courtesy of the State of Maine might drop by to make sure his head was staying shrunk to a suitable size.
   After she was in bed, Gardener had turned off the TV and sat a while in Bobbi's rocker, reading The Buffalo Soldiers. In a short time, he heard her snoring away. Gardener supposed Bobbi's snores would also be part of a conspiracy to keep him awake, but he didn't really mind – Bobbi had always snored, the price of a deviated septum, and that had always annoyed Gardener, but he had discovered last night that some things were worse. The ghastly silence in which she had slept on the couch, for instance. That was much worse.
   Gardener had poked his head in for a moment, had seen Bobbi in a much more typical Bobbi Anderson sleeping posture, naked except pajama bottoms, small breasts bare, blankets kicked into disarray between her legs, one hand curled under her cheek, the other by her face, her thumb almost in her mouth. Bobbi was okay.
   So Gardener had come out here to make his decision.
   Bobbi's patch of garden was going great guns – the corn was taller than any Gardener had seen on his way north from Arcadia Beach, and her tomatoes were going to be blue ribbon winners. Some of them would have come to the knees of a man walking down the row. In the middle of it all was a cluster of giant sunflowers, ominous as triffids, nodding in the slight breeze.
   When Bobbi asked him if he'd ever heard of the so-called 'gasoline pill,' Gardener had smiled and nodded. More twentieth-century fairy tales, all right. She'd then asked him if he believed it. Gardener, still smiling, said no. Bobbi reminded him about Hangar 18.
   'Are you saying you do believe there's such a pill? Or was? Something you'd just drop into your gas tank and run on all day?'
   'No,' Bobbi said quietly. 'Nothing I've ever read suggests the possibility of such a pill.' She leaned forward, forearms on her thighs. 'But I'll tell you what I do believe: if there was, it wouldn't be on the market. Some big cartel, or maybe the government itself, would buy it … or steal it.'
   'Yeah,' Gard said. He had thought more than once about the crazy ironies inherent in every status quo: open the U.S. borders and put all those customs people out of work? Legalize dope and destroy the DEA. You might as well try to shoot the man in the moon with a BB.
   Gard burst out laughing.
   Bobbi looked at him, puzzled but also smiling a little. 'So? Share.'
   'I was just thinking that if there was a pill like that, the Dallas Police would shoot the guy who invented it and then put it next to the green guys in Hangar 18.'
   'Not to mention his whole family,' Bobbi agreed.
   Gard didn't laugh this time. This time it didn't seem quite so hilarious.
   'In that light,' Anderson had said, 'look at what I've done here. I'm not even a good handyman, let alone anyone's scientist, and so the force that worked through me produced a bunch of stuff that looks more like stuff from Boys' Life plans than anything else – built by a fairly incompetent boy, at that.'
   'They work,' Gardener replied.
   Yes, Anderson had agreed. They did. She even had a vague idea of how they worked – on a principle which could be called 'collapsing-molecule fusion.' It was non-atomic, totally clean. The telepathic typewriter, she said, depended on collapsing-molecule fusion for juice, but the actual principle of that one was much different, and she didn't understand it. There was a power-pack inside that had begun life as a fuzz-buster, but beyond that she was completely blank.
   'You get a bunch of scientists in here from the NSA or the Shop, and they'd probably have this stuff down pat in six hours,' Anderson said. 'They'd go around looking like somebody just kicked them in the balls, asking each other how the hell they could have missed such elementary concepts for so long. And do you know what would happen next?'
   Gardener thought about it hard, his head down, one hand gripping the can of beer Bobbi had given him, the other gripping his forehead, and suddenly he was back at that terrible party listening to Ted the Power Man defend the Iroquois plant which even now was loading hot rods: If we gave these nuke-freaks what they wanted, they'd turn around a month or so later and start whining about not being able to use their blow-dryers, or found out their Cuisinarts weren't going to work when they wanted to mix up a bunch of macrobiotic food. He saw himself leading Ted the Power Man over to Arberg's buffet – he saw this as clearly as if it had happened … shit, as if it was happening right then. On the table, between the chips and the bowl of raw veggies, was one of Bobbi's contraptions. The batteries were hooked up to a circuit board; that was in turn hooked up to an ordinary wall switch, the sort available in any hardware store for a buck or so. Gardener saw himself turn this switch, and suddenly everything on the table – chips, raw veggies, the lazy susan with its five different kinds of dip, the remains of the cold cuts and the carcass of the chicken, the ashtrays, the drinks – they rose six inches into the air and then simply held there, their shadows pooling decorously beneath them on the white linen. Ted the Power Man looked at this for a moment, mildly annoyed. Then he swept the contraption off the table. The wires snapped. Batteries rolled hither and yon. Everything fell back to the table with a crash, glasses spilling, ashtrays overturning and scattering butts. Ted took off his sport-coat and covered the remains of the gadget, the way you might cover the corpse of an animal hit and killed on the road. That done, he turned back to his small captive audience and resumed speaking. These people think they can go on having their cake and eating it too forever. These people assume that there is always going to be a fallback position. They are wrong. There is no fallback position. It's simple: nukes or nothing. Gardener heard himself screaming in a rage that was, for a change, totally sober: What about the thing you just broke? What about that? Ted bent and picked up his sport-coat as gracefully as a magician waving his cape before a bedazzled audience. The floor beneath was bare except for a few potato chips. No sign of the gadget. No sign at all. What about what thing? Ted the Power Man asked, looking straight at Gardener with an expression of sympathy into which a liberal helping of contempt had been mixed. He turned to his audience. Does anybody here see anything? … No, they were answering in unison, like children reciting: Arberg, Patricia McCardle, all the rest; even the young bartender and Ron Cummings were reciting it. No, we don't see anything, we don't see anything at all, Ted, not a thing, you're right, Ted, it's the nukes or nothing. Ted was smiling. Next thing you know, he'll be telling us that old wheeze about the itty-bitty pill you can put in your gas tank and run your car on all day. Ted the Power Man began to laugh. All the others joined in. All of them were laughing at him.
   Gardener raised his head and turned agonized eyes on Bobbi Anderson. 'You think they'd … what? Classify all this?'
   'Don't you?' And, after a moment, in a very gentle voice, Anderson prompted: 'Gard?'
   'Yes,' Gardener said after a long time, and for a moment he was very close to bursting into tears. 'Yeah, sure. Sure they would.'

10

   Now he sat on a stump in Bobbi's back yard without the slightest idea there was a loaded shotgun pointed at the back of his head.
   He sat thinking of his mental replay of the party. It was so horrifying and so utterly obvious that he supposed he could be forgiven the time it had taken him to see it and grasp it. The ship in the earth could not be dealt with just on the basis of Bobbi's welfare, or Haven's welfare. Regardless of what it was or what it was doing to Bobbi or anyone else in the immediate area, the ultimate disposition of the ship in the earth would have to be made on the basis of the world's welfare. Gardener had served on dozens of committees whose goals ranged from the possible to the wildly crazed. He had marched; had given more than he could afford to help pay for newspaper ads in two unsuccessful campaigns to close Maine Yankee by referendum; as a college student he had marched against the U.S. involvement in Vietnam; he belonged to Greenpeace; he supported NARAL. In half a dozen muddled ways he had tried to deal with the world's welfare, but his efforts, although growing out of individual thought, had always been expressed as part of a group. Now …
   Up to you, Gard-ole-Gard. Just you. He sighed. It was like a sob. Ring those funky changes, white boy … sure. But first ask yourself who wants the world to change? The unfed, the unwell, the unhomed, right? The parents of those kids in Africa with the big bellies and the dying eyes. The blacks in South Africa. The PLO. Does Ted the Power Man want a big helping of funky changes? Bite your tongue! Not Ted, not the Russian Politburo, not the Knesset, not the President of the United States, not the Seven Sisters, not Xerox, not Barry Manilow.
   Oh no, not the big boys, not the ones with the real power, the ones who drove the Status Quo Machine. Their motto was 'Get the funk outta my face.'
   There was a time when he would not have hesitated for a moment, and that time was not so long past. Bobbi wouldn't have needed any arguments; Gard himself would have been the guy flogging the horse until its heart burst … only he would have been right there in harness too, pulling alongside. Here, at last, was a source of clean power, so abundant and easy to produce it might as well be free. Within six months, every nuclear reactor in the United States could be brought to a cold stop. Within a year, every reactor in the world. Cheap power. Cheap transport. Travel to other planets, even other starsystems seemed possible – after all, Bobbi's ship had not gotten to Haven, Maine, on the good ship Lollypop. It was, in fact – give us a drumroll, please, maestro – THE ANSWER TO EVERYTHING.
   Are there weapons on board that ship, do you think?
   He had started to ask Bobbi that and something had stopped his mouth. Weapons? Maybe. And if Bobbi could receive enough of that residual 'force' to create a telepathic typewriter, could she also create something that would look like a Flash Gordon stun-gun but which might actually work? Or a disintegrator? A tractor-beam? Something which would, instead of just going Brummmmm or Wacka-Wacka-Wacka would actually turn people into piles of smoldering ash? Possibly. And if not, wouldn't some of Bobbi's hypothetical scientists adapt things like the water-heater gadget or the customized Tomcat motor to something that would put a radical hurt on people?
   Sure. After all, long before toasters and hair dryers and baseboard heaters were ever thought of, the State of New York was using electricity to fry murderers at Sing-Sing.
   What scared Gardener was that the idea of weapons held a certain attractiveness. Part of it, he supposed, was just self-interest. If the order came down to put a sport-coat over the mess, then surely he and Bobbi would be part of what was to be covered. But beyond that were other possibilities. One of them, wild but not unattractive, was the idea that he and Bobbi might be able to kick a lot of asses that deserved kicking. The idea of sending happy-time folks like the Ayatollah into the Phantom Zone was so delightful that it almost made Gardener chuckle. Why wait for the Israelis and the Arabs to sort out their problems? And terrorists of all stripes … goodbye, fellas. Catch you on the flip-flop.
   Wonderful, Gard! I love it! We'll put it on network TV! It'll be better than Miami Vice! Instead of two fearless drug-busters, we got Gard and Bobbi, cruising the planet in their flying saucer! Gimme the phone, someone! I got to call CBS!
   You're not funny, Gardener thought.
   Who's laughing? Isn't that what you're talking about? You and Bobbi playing the Lone Ranger and Tonto?
   So what if it is? How long does it take before that option starts looking good? How many suitcase bombs? How many women shot in embassy toilets? How many dead kids? How long do we let it all go on?
   Love it, Gard. 'Okay, everyone on Planet Earth, sing along with Gard and Bobbi – just follow the bouncing ball: "The aaanswer, my friend, is blooowin' in the wind. . . "'
   You're disgusting.
   And you're starting to sound downright dangerous. You remember how scared you were when that state trooper found the pistol in your pack? How scared you were because you didn't even remember putting it in there? This is it all over again. The only difference is that now you're talking about a bigger caliber. Dear Christ, are you ever

   As a younger man, these questions never would have occurred to him … and if they had, he would simply have brushed them aside. Apparently Bobbi already had. She was. after all, the one who had mentioned the man on horseback.
   What do you mean, a man on horseback?
   I mean us, Gard. But I think … I think I mostly mean you.
   Bobbi, when I was twenty-five I burned all the time. When I was thirty, I burned some of the time. But the oxygen in here must be getting thin, because now I only burn when I'm drunk. I'm scared to climb up on that horse, Bobbi. If history ever taught me anything, it taught me that horses like to bolt.
   He shifted on the stump again, and the shotgun followed him. Anderson sat in the kitchen on a stool, the barrels swivelling a bit on the window-sill with every move Gardener made. She was getting very little of his thoughts; it was frustrating, maddening. But she was getting enough to know that Gardener was approaching a decision … and when he made it, Anderson thought she would know what it was.
   If it was the wrong one, she was going to blow off the back of his head and bury the body in the soft soil at the foot of the garden. She would hate to do that, but if she had to, she would.
   Anderson waited calmly for the moment, her mind tuned to the faint run of Gardener's thoughts, making the tenuous connection.
   It would not be long now.
   What really scares you is the chance to deal from a position of strength for the first time in your miserable, confused life.
   He sat up straighter, an expression of dismay on his face. It wasn't true, was it? Surely it wasn't.
   Oh, but Gard, it is. You even root for baseball teams that are cataclysmic underdogs. That way you never have to worry about being depressed if one of them blows it in the World Series. It's the same with the candidates and the causes you support, isn't it? Because if your politics never get the chance to be tried out, you never have to worry about finding out that the new boss is the same as the old boss, do you?
   I'm not scared. Not of that.
   The fuck you're not. A man on horseback? You? Man, that's a laugh. You'd have a heart attack if someone asked you to be a man on a tricycle. Your own personal life has been nothing but a constant effort to destroy every power-base you have. Take marriage. Nora was tough, you finally had to shoot her to get rid of her, but when the chips were down, you didn't stick at it, did you? You're a man who manages to rise to every occasion, I'll give you that. You got yourself fired from your teaching job, thus eliminating another power-base. You've spent twelve years pouring enough booze onto the little spark of talent God gave you to put it out. Now this. You better run, Gard.
   That's not fair! Honest to God, it's not!
   No? Isn't there enough truth in it to make a comeuppance?
   Maybe. Maybe so. Either way, he discovered that the decision had already been made. He would stick with Bobbi, at least for a while, do it her way.
   Bobbi's blithe assurances that everything was just ducky didn't jibe very well with her exhaustion and weight-loss. What the ship in the earth could do to Bobbi it would probably do to him. What had happened – or failed to happen – today proved nothing; he would not have expected all the changes to come at once. Yet the ship – and whatever force emanated from it – had a great capacity to do good. That was the main thing, and … well, fuck the Tommyknocker man.
   Gardener got up and walked toward the house. The sun had gone down, and the twilight was turning ashy. His back was stiff. He stretched, standing on his toes, and grimaced as his spine crackled. He looked past the dark, silent shape of the Tomcat to the shed door with its new padlock. He thought of going to it, trying to look through one of the dirt-grimed windows … and decided not to. Perhaps he was afraid a white face would pop up inside the dark window, its grin showing a mouthful of filed cannibal teeth in a deadly ring. Hello, Gard, you want to meet some genuine Tommyknockers? Come on in! There's lots of us in here!
   Gardener shivered – he could almost hear thin, evil fingers scrabbling on the panes. Too much had happened today and yesterday. His imagination had gotten out. Tonight it would walk and talk. He didn't know if he should hope for sleep or for it to stay away.

12

   Once he was back inside, his uneasiness began to fade. With it went some of his craving for drink. He took off his shirt and then peered into Anderson's room. Bobbi lay just as she had lain before, blankets caught between her dreadfully thin legs, one hand thrown out, snoring.
   Hasn't even moved. Christ, she must be tired.
   He took a long shower, turning the water up as hot as he dared (with Bobbi Anderson's new water heater, that meant barely jogging the knob five degrees west of dead cold). When his skin began to turn red. he stepped out into a bathroom as steamy as London in the grip of a Sherlockian fog. He towelled, brushed his teeth with a finger – got to do something about getting some supplies here, he thought -and went to bed.
   Drifting off, he found himself thinking again about the last thing Bobbi had said during their discussion. She believed the ship in the earth had begun to affect the townspeople. When he asked for specifics, she grew vague, then changed the subject. Gardener supposed anything was possible in this crazy business. Although the old Frank Garrick place was in the boonies, it was almost exactly in the geographic center of the township itself. There was a Haven Village, but that was five miles further north.
   'You make it sound as if it was throwing off poison gas,' he had said, hoping he didn't sound as uneasy as he felt. 'Paraquat from Space. They Came from Agent Orange.'
   'Poison gas?' Bobbi repeated. She had gone off by herself again. Her face, so thin now, was closed and distant. 'No, not poison gas. Call it fumes if you want to call it anything. But it's more than just the vibration when a person touches it.'
   Gardener said nothing, not wanting to break her mood.
   'Fumes? Not that, either. But like fumes. If EPA came in here with sniffers, I don't think they'd find any pollutants at all. If there's any actual, physical residue from the ship in the air, it's nothing but the tiniest trace.'
   'Do you think that's possible, Bobbi?' Gardener asked quietly.
   'Yes. I'm not telling you I know that's what's happening, because I don't. I have no inside information. But I think that a very thin layer of the ship's hull – and I mean thin, maybe no more than a single molecule or two in depth – could be oxidizing as I uncover it and the air hits it. That means I'd get the first, heaviest dose . . . and then it would go with the wind, like fallout. The people in town would get most of it … but "most" would really mean---damn little" in this case.'
   Bobbi shifted in her rocker and reached down with her right hand. It was a gesture Gardener had seen her make many times before, and his heart went out to his friend when he saw the look of sorrow cross Bobbi's face. Bobbi put her hand back into her lap.
   'But I'm not sure that's what's going on at all, you know. There's a novel by a man named Peter Straub called Floating Dragon – have you read it?'
   Gardener had shaken his head.
   'Well, it postulates something similar to your Agent Orange from Space or Paraquat of the Gods or whatever you called it.'
   Gardener smiled.
   'In the story, an experimental chemical is sucked out into the atmosphere and falls on a piece of suburban Connecticut. This stuff really is poison – a kind of insanity gas. People get in fights for no reason, some fellow decides to paint his whole house – including the windows – bright pink, a woman jogs until she drops dead of a massive coronary and so on.
   'There's another novel – this one is called Brain Wave, and it was written by . . .' Anderson wrinkled her brow, thinking. Her hand stole down to the right of the rocker again, then came back. 'Same name as mine, Anderson. Poul Anderson. In that one, the earth passes through the tail of a comet and some of the fallout makes animals smarter. The book starts with a rabbit literally reasoning its way out of a trap.'
   'Smarter,' Gardener echoed.
   'Yes. If you had an IQ of 120 before the earth went through the comet, you'd end up with an IQ of 180. Get it?'
   'Well-rounded intelligence?'
   'Yes.'
   'But the term you used before was idiot savant. That's the exact opposite of well-rounded intelligence, isn't it? It's a kind of … of bump.'
   Anderson waved this aside. 'Doesn't matter,' she said.
   Now, lying here in bed, drifting off to sleep, Gardener wondered.