In Search

full of anger still out of control walking on these eggshells the peace my inner soul lying on the doorstep where i used to rest my head found another fortune back where i began i don't know if i'll be there for you anymore don't feel so lucky know that i am proud not giving you excuses not looking for going back to days of old in search for something new seeing through the eyes you give me all that we go through fit the pieces to this puzzle i've outgrown i don't know what you feel sorry for i see you on the back page secrets that you keep for you i find out on my own see you from the last page

Just For Me

forget the tears running down my face
everything so unimportant and you say
when we understand all our problems will
go away and i'm just trying to keep things
simple know what's it going to take for me
to say a few more hours i think we need a
change get back to all the reasons when
we've tried to turn the other way response
triggers an image i'm just trying to keep
it all together now what's it going to take
for me to say i built these walls around
my world so no one could get in selfish
that's the way i want to be sharing not
my thing and definitely won't give
i'm keeping all that's left it's just for me.

Leather Face

cast away the hopes of someone ever changing you but the thrill it takes to get there is something all brand new the reasons why i stay are always justified i never told you what that means i never told you anything step aside take a breath let it be don't look back it's gonna free your mind free your mind after everyone you walk on you turn your head away i know it burns you up inside but your walls run so high i've got something to tell you i know you know what it means i know it's something you see the pain that hides so deep inside will soon show its head the truth will surface as you lie awake and the dream will be dead

Lifer

a row of mirrors before me and i can't see my reflection.
my life is so far is far from my expectations.
it's getting lonely in this parking lot of life.
i guess my punishment is my salvation,
i wish i could find a way to roam.
driving home always gives me the blues,
singing songs about what i feel like inside,
keeps me coming back for more.
it's getting lonely in this parking lot of life,
i guess my punishment is my salvation.
i tread the thin line,
you don't know who to follow home your life is so far,
is far from your expectations.
it's getting lonely with this parking lot of life.

Locked Away

i'm not angry I'm through being mad,
i'm done feeling sorry after you hurt me so bad:
Don't try thinking about me cause i'm already gone.
not saying that I'm right just telling you you're wrong.
Keeping to myself or am i really locked away?
a childhood of scars i bear that make me fell this way.
don't relate to people that don't relate to me.
paste the point of anger,
when will you take me seriously?
people used to laugh don't want to be like them
people who i trust and used to call my friends.
things are so much easier now your agony is gone.
sometimes you just don't know you are right
because someone else is wrong.
It's not a matter of foolish pride that won't let me forgive you.
it's the hatred that i feel inside for trusting you.
someday i'm gonna break away.
one day i'm gonna break away.

Lost Trip

why can't you take on your own identity you only live by what other people see thoughts and views you cloned what are you gonna do when the world stands still and you're all alone with the emptiness you feel an empty stare with your past washed up i pity you and the life you made up you can't impress me i know what is real the mask is melting off your face melting away what are you gonna do when the world stands still and you're all alone with the emptiness you feel an empty stare with your past washed up i pity you and the life you made up every day there's a side of you hiding from a world that respects you lonely heart thinker on a long lost trip you're just a reflection of the people you're with

Mandingo

she spent her nights next to years of deception,
and he sees a girl to him fifty summers ago
and again his hands tearing apart.
sometimes i felt that when the grass was always greener
and the sadness in the sun can turn it blue.
take a swing up to the sky
and never watch it pass you by,
the carpets rolling out for you.
you hold the reins and i still have control
and i don't know what i would do without you.
another room, another face,
i smell the anger in this place.
and i'm not hanging to survive.
my chair sits high, the ceiling's low,
there's nowhere else for me to go.
i'll rot right here until the day i die.

No Defense

conflict and jeopardy, i avoid confrontation,
i can't dream up the reasons
why you try to extrude my confidence.
i have no defense,
givin me no motive to stab me in the back,
i've only been your friend for years
and years to come. is it a joke,
cause i'm not laughing,
well i guess it is cause i'm still standing.
feel free to take hits on me
and don't worry about an apology
cause it makes you feel good to stand your ground.
when it comes to playing my game,
you know i'm outta my league.
tongue-tied battered and reversed,
i can't get up to speed,
if i make the rules, you break, feel .
like a fool who's been taken through the ringer.

Nothing To Lose

don't tell me life can be unkind
how the goals you thought you could
reach
you can never find
cause it's
all work
ain't nothing free
to bad you
had to learn at
the expense of me
i'm
tired of the lies i hear
why do you feel
the need
to dismiss your act's of selfishness
why can't you own up to your own greed?

nothing to lose and nothing to gain your
still right where you've always been
nothing ever seems to change
nothing to prove or to be explained you get what you deserve in the end it's really all the same

so much for my trust in you
my once long time friend
you've done the damage that you can do
the waste of energy you expend
i've done nothing dishonest to you
you lit the flame that burned this bridge
and from all i see and hear
the guilt is laying heavy on our head.
and

nothing to lose and
nothing to gain your still right where you've always been
nothing ever seems to change
nothing to prove or to be explained you get what you deserve in the end it's really all the same

think of all the energy you've wasted
trying to get even
nothing come from
bringing others down
i'm all out of sympathy
you took what you could take from me
squander your i'll gotten fortune back

nothing to lose and
nothing to gain your still right where you've always been
nothing ever seems to change
nothing to prove or to be explained you get what you deserve in the end it's really all the same

nothing to lose and
nothing to gain your still right where you've always been
nothing ever seems to change
nothing to prove or to be explained you get what you deserve in the end it's really all the same

Outside Opinion

so you want to put everybody down,
you don't like the way that anybody sounds.
if you don't like it here then why you come around
if you've got nothing valid to say
and won't waste my time saying how long i've been here,
if you can't respect the dues i've paid,
your thinking isn't clear. it really shouldn't matter,
should be only what you hear,
but i don't think you're listening anymore.
spent two hundred thousand miles
with my shit packed in a van,
if the music made us friends,
then the love made us a band.
if you need an explanation then you'll never understand.
this music's just a part of me grew up with the outside opinion,
an outcast of the inside dominion lived
my whole life against the grain.
it always seemed i was one foot out of step.
never do anything that anyone would accept.
if that's someone's fault, i'll take the blame.
so now i got a question, where were you in '84?
i'm still touring in a van, sleeping on a strangers' floor.
what we do today is what we used to do before.
why you want anything more?
gotta prove you're punk so you rebel against the scene.
so elite admit defeat don't know what you really mean.
if the shows all disappear, is that what you want to see?
why you gotta ruin it for me?