All We Have

great aspirations often fall too short to fly.
life alone can take us on its twisted path
as we wander down this road not all sure where to go.
sometimes the scenery can just bore you to death.
as i sit down to write, another day has passed me by,
they all seem the same anymore with so little time to live,
and so much time to kill, how's it
that i still find so much time to be bored?
am i wasting time, is my purpose being served,
am i part of a bigger master plan?
today is all i have, can't change yesterday.
strolling down this road again,
life has made me cynical, it's taught me about its pain.
is the little blue man using me for him?
i guess i know the answer already,
so does he, but when he goes he'll know if his sin was sin.
i guess for now the only answers
that i'll get will be the ones i can figure out myself.
listen closely friends we're coming to this story's end,
and i don't think that i have rid from any doubt.

Barf

why every time when something hurts someone
always comes up and wants to make it worse?
i'll never make the cover of a rolling stone,
but at least i know my life's my own
on my back porch what it will mean.
on my notes tell me what they'll mean.
splitting up the difference between one and two
doesn't make a difference between me and you
what the signs they say the trucks are weaving back
and forth on any day but sunday at four o' clock
and the meter's running too late
now put your quarter in and you know you won't be found.
i know inside that your're afraid of me
i've become all the things
that i said i would be something more
than rehearsed the pain i feel contained,
i look in the mirror and i saw someone else.

Black Box

Up here sedated in my seat, can't wait 'til I can see my feet
Run away from stupid things I've said
I'll be here a few days from now, talk about it when I come down
If we make it this time, I'll clean the stain I've bled

Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash-lands, what memories will survive?
I thank my black box that I'm alive

I feel unlucky today, can't wash the panic off my face
Didn't learn a thing from the last time
So selfish to be so confused, heart beats like rapid fire
So close to the edge, but far away in mind

Two days to go until I see you
Looks like we can call up the ambulance down there
My head is touching down and I've learned to be afraid.
I thank my black box

Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash-lands, what memories will survive?
I thank my black box that I'm alive

I feel unlucky today

Cashed In

for what it's worth, i've walked miles
and i've seen the sun go down.
played my share of dues,
yet you still want to put me down..
started on the bottom tell me
why i feel here again.
it was at my expense, now you're cashing in.
make way for the boys in your town today,
dig in your pockets, they've got alot to say.
look up on the wall,
they'll have some shirts for sale.
another week has passed
can you keep up with the brand new scene,
the music's changing
with the constant tapping of my feet.
play it faster, play it slower,
you still don't know,
the music's not so important to you,
it's what you're makin' off the show.
starting from the bottom again.

Crawl

Self destruct, I want you to go
Time and time again
And just like a faucet keeps dripping on what
Soakin' into yesteryear
Yeah, soakin' into yesteryear

Every time you work out you say it's a dream
A thought you can't complete
Never ending, haunting, why don't they stop?
Don't go through the door
Yeah, don't walk past that door

And you crawl on the floors
Why do you have so much time?
Why can't you see?
And why do you have so much time?

And you crawl on the floors
Why do you have so much time?
Why can't you see?
And why do you have so much time?

Darkside

i could never do enough for you
you took all i could give to leave
me outside in the cold am i supposed
to forgive? go your way and i'll go
mine there's nothing left to say i'm
better of without some one who would
treat a friend this way felling sorry
for yourself i don't feel sorry for you
search for answers find no answers
i don't feel sorry for you support your
cause i never will believe a thing you
say the taste of dirt inside your mouth
it's the dark side you can blame search
to find the answers that were once
intelligent now you find your self all
alone with your new friends the loss of
hope the forgotten dreams i'll get over
you some day you built this wall around
yourself and you pushed us all away
there's so many song's that glorify
this sickness that decay standing still
while your hanging on i'll get over you
someday

Destiny

did destiny choose you what will it take to move you inspiration won't come cheap it's your turn to take that leap and let your thoughts fall where they may when you choose your place to stay

Dog's Life

my cases sit right in front of me
waiting for someone to take my away alone
i sit my pills are kicking in you see
i'm a dog and i'm locked in my cage eyes
are red tongue is hanging out i'm thirsty
as shit and i'm still a dog fleas don't
itch i had a bath the other day before
this trip wonder where were going toys are
packed i see my bed is in my two bowls are
somewhere in reach i'll scratch with rage
until i find a way to get through this
cardboard that sits under me it's cold down
here bumpy ride and my seats not first class,
man's best friend i feel befriended this is a
dogs life ok were here things are ok again
a brand new lawn just to welcome me here
scratch my ears and i'll chase down your
ball looks like this new lace will be home
for know it won't take much to go back to
sleep after going through all this wake
up tomorrow and we'll do it again living a
dog's life.

Empty

like a fuse ready for fire spark me up and i mean simple seems to just a few i trust what i am saying every day can't believe all that's going on around me down the hall i see it everywhere i have to tell you something about me i wake up with this splitting difference doesn't leave anything for you give up that half my pockets they're empty where we're headed to the life through the fast lane wait a minute you've busted like a bone paid what price for a crime that spared and you walked off free voices call from in your head laughing and screaming

Endless Journey

i am tired and confused, i don't know what to do.
i can't stomach this pain any longer, life is at a crossroad.
which way do i go? i can't make a decision for the life of me.
losing my bout with this life, no doubt.
or am i really...just succeeding?
i'm a afraid of getting older,
i feel it getting colder just please don't give me eternity.
follow me on my wasted journey,
i got two ways i can bring you down.
one's for leaving, two's for staying, either way.
don't you ever learn from your own interpreter,
that a lifestyle is begging for mercy.
i can't understand when it's all in my hands.
i don't see it, i don't feel it. as long as i remember,
i will always treasure those times that i actually felt happy.
but for now i stand proud and never speak loud.
and hide all my insecure feelings.
falling prey to your own bad habit,
you realize it's time to get out, happy now, but not quite,
i'm just a little too tired right now.
falling prey, falling prey, don't follow me.
frozen feelings have always been your being.
but the guilt always finds a way in.
not a tear flows through, not a thought,
not a sound. and numbness overwhelms me solo
now i can only reach out for a stray flyer
on my high wire and from the ground to the air
it goes totally unnoticed,
isn't it just like that.....so typical.