"I Do Not Want This"

   
I'm losing ground
Well you know how this world can beat you down
And I'm made of clay
I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way
I'm always falling down the same hill
Bamboo puncturing this skin
And nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face
And if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place

I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this

And don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
You don't know just how I feel

I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
And don't tell me that you care
There really isn't anything. Now is there?
You would know. Wouldn't you?
You extend your hand to those who suffer
To those who know what it really feels like
To those who have had a taste
Like that means something
And oh so sick I am
And maybe I don't have a choice
And maybe that is all I have
And maybe this is a cry for help

I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this

And don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
Don't you tell me how I feel
You don't know just how I feel

I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
And [1,2,3] I want to do something that matters

"Big Man With A Gun"

   
I am a big man
(Yes I am)
And I have a big gun
Got me a big old dick and I
I like to have fun
Held against your forehead
Well I'll make you suck it
Maybe I'll put a hole in your head
You know. Just for the fuck of it
Well I can reduce you if I want
Well I can devour
I'm hard as fucking steel and I've got the power
I'm every inch a man and I'll show you somehow
Me and my fucking gun
Nothing can stop me now


Shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot
I'm going to come all over you
Me and my fucking gun
Me and my fucking gun

"Eraser"

   
Need you
Dream you
Find you
Taste you
Fuck you
Use you
Scar you
Break you
Lose me
Hate me
Smash me
Erase me

"Reptile"

   
She spreads herself wide open to let the insects in
She leaves a trail of honey to show me where she's been
She has the blood of reptile just underneath her skin
Seeds from a thousand others drip down from within

Oh my beautiful liar
Oh my precious whore
My disease my infection
I am so impure

Devils speak of the ways in which she'll manifest
Angels bleed from the tainted touch of my caress
Need to contaminate to alleviate this loneliness
I now know the depths I reach are limitless

Oh my beautiful liar
Oh my precious whore
My disease my infection
I am so impure

"The Downward Spiral"

   
He couldn't believe how easy it was
He put the gun into his face
Bang!
(So much blood for such a tiny little hole)

Problems have solutions
A lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash

Everything's blue
In this world
The deepest shade of mushroom blue
All fuzzy
Spilling out of my head

"Hurt"

   
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

"Closer To God"

   
You let me violate you
You let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you
You let me complicate you

I broke apart my insides
I've got no soul to sell
The only thing that works for me
Help me get away

I wanna fuck you
I wanna taste you
I wanna feel you
I wanna be you
Just like an animal

You can have my isolation
You can have the hate that it brings
You can have absence of faith
You can have my everything

You tear down all my reason
You see through what I hide
You make me perfect
Help me get inside
I wanna fuck you
I wanna taste you
I wanna feel you
I wanna be you

"Closer (Precursor)"

   
Like an animal
Like an animal
Like an animal
Like an animal
I want to fuck you like an animal
Like an animal
Like an animal

"Closer (Deviation)"

   
You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I've got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason I stay alive

Help me get away from myself
You get me closer to god
Help me get away from myself
You get me closer to god
Help me get away from myself
You get me closer to god

"Heresy (Blind)"

   
He sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
He tries to tell me what I put inside of me
He's got the answers to ease my curiosity
He dreamed up a God and called it Christianity

Your God is dead and no one cares
If there is a hell I will see you there

He flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
He made a virus that would kill off all the swine
His perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
Demands devotion atrocities done in His name

Your God is dead and no one cares
Drowning in His own hypocrisy
And if there is a hell I will see you there

Burning with your God in humility
Will you die for this?