END OF ENDS


in the end of ends
there is nothing left for you where you begin
let the needle in
swallow it whole never let you go
i know enough about you
hollow and empty but i don't care
cuz i did it before and i'll do it again
and again never win
i never wanted to
see you near me
you wanna be wanted
and i can't take anymore
the more i touch you the more i hate you
like i never did before
did it set you free
if there's something for nothing
i can't see
redefining sin
the man on the cross he is lost
who is your saviour now
and do you follow through now
or do you lose
pay for what you do
cuz i said it before and i'll say it again
and again never win
i never wanted to
well i'm hanging on
along the way
i've been here before
i've seen the blood drain away

FALSE IDOL


can you go down
can you stand right here
get your prayers on
swallow it down
cuz you got nothing to fear
can you feel me
did i make you clear
are you near me
don't bother looking
you know there's nobody here
what do i need to make it whole
what do i need to let it go
what do i need to make it mine
what do i need to say goodbye
what have you done
how did you get here
load up your gun
put on the trigger
cuz you got nothing to fear
and it's no fun
when there's no one here
and you're no one
don't bother looking
you know there's nobody here

INSIDE


is it time for me to say goodbye
seeing everything has made me blind
maybe just one time if i could fly
maybe i could live before i die
knocking only once
i now sell everything for you
understand i'll try
before i die to break on through
what about you
hoping everything will be alright
listening to the things i have inside
why does everybody seem to lie
maybe i could live before i die
i would die for you
i would kill anything for you
i would sell anything for you
anything i would sell anything
what about you

LOADED GUN


i stare at me
reflections of the mirror i see
and it is done
i've got amphetamine eyes
and the knowledge of handguns
and all the things i'll try to find
with everything i've left behind
and i've got something you don't know
and you're the one who'd like to know
hold me down
shoot again but you do not want to
show me how
free again but you know they've caught you
i try to hide
i'd rather be alone tonight
i try to run
i got a devil inside
i'm the seed of a bad son
now what is it behind these eyes
and even i don't realize
that there is nothing here for me
and you're the one who'd like to...

MEMORY LANE


As I lay here in my bed you might mistake me as being dead and I only hope that I don’t dissapoint you. And if I could I would say everything that I could ever think of here in my mind.

So please don’t leave me quite just yet. It’s not my fault that I’m being forced to come along for the ride. Just know that it feels like I’m dying (just know that it feels like I’m dying.) And that I’d much rather be with you tonight.

If you can’t remember what it’s like then take a trip down memory lane. And if you’re home alone tonight just remember that it always turns out the same. Emptiness and loneliness too just remember that I’ll always be here for you. My promise is that through and through I’ll be sticking it through for you. Just don’t go walking down memory lane.

So if you are waiting for me and you get nothing please just hold on a little longer. I can’t stand lying like this to you but just know that I have to. I wish that there was something more that I could do.

NEED TO NEVER


And it's been said to me
I hold a key I'll never see
And what I used to have was lost but now I found it
And without sympathy
The bleeding eye could never see
They're lining up to die the people I have counted
All the things I need to never
Do the things I want to do
Thought that it would change forever
But I never really want it
I used to try to be what I had seen that wasn't me
And what surrounded me was people that were clouded
And though it's hard to see just what I mean it isn't
free
And what has grounded me
Was something that you doubted

NO DIRECTION


I know that there is no direction
Far from anywhere I've been
Too much of anything kills anyone
Or so I think I've seen
Don't let it fall don't let it in
You needed more of everything
Don't let it fall the chance to live
And what is it you're after
What it is to me
What is it you're after now
I need your help, I need protection
Safe from things I cannot see
My love is anything that's possible
And what you mean to me
And I feel naked, I cannot take it
And I feel naked right now

NOTHING LEFT


i can't take it anymore
and everything i had before
has gone so far away
no mistake i wanted more
hesitate to let it go
and i am gone
you will follow me
i'll follow you
and there is nothing left to do now
nothing left to do now
nothing left to do
i can't take it anymore
and what i need i had before
and now i fade away
make me wait what was it for
show me where i started from
and i am gone
walking away
nothing more left to say
oh yeah
feeling alright
no excuse left to fight
oh yeah
and i say

NOW AND AGAIN


i see so clearly
for all it has been
look back you've blackened my memories
how fast the time flies
burning my eyes
i'm blinded by kindlessness
screaming at me
trying and lying
believing deceiving
i listen to you i don't hear anything
crying and dying
and dying i'm dead
look at me now and again
lost in this dream
awaken to see
the lack of light is crippling me
i put my head into the machine
i hold on to something here
breathing in me
walk away my friend
i've fallen down
too much too late
i've been here

PRINCE VALIUM


i am the same
except for everything
i am the same
except for what i bring
i'll play your game
you ask me what's my name
it's all the same
when i am flying
now i've lost my ground
and i'll hear the sound
of something dying
prince of valium i am
i am what i am i say
i am falling down