ABSENCE

Stare into the face of my brother
His features have faded into dust
He lies here now, waiting for the darkness
Carrying the hopes and dreams we shared

He stood among the ravaged so courageous
His figure stoic and so brave
Cut down in shrouds of subtle irony
For years I prayed that it had taken me

In the absence of a god
In the absence of belief
I will never let this go
I will never let this sleep
In the absence of a god
In the absence of belief
I will never let this go
I will never let this sleep

For reasons I have long since forgotten
I could never bear the thought of an end
Years have passed and still I wonder
If I had been the one, where would he be?

Through suffering and pain I've come to realize
Knowing all that I have survived
Only loses and complete destruction
Can release the demons that grow inside

In the absence of a god
In the absence of belief
I will never let this go
I will never let this sleep
In the absence of a god
In the absence of belief
I will never let this go
I have fallen in too deep.

APATHY

Break my will
Release the chains that hold me
Bind me to by my fears
Blind the eyes that see me

I've never asked for much
And yet you still you deny
I live with my regrets
The things I left behind
But yet I stand and face you
I see you face to face
Uncaring eyes regard me
And I see your sweet distaste

Watch me fall
Stare as my figure falls apart
See all the things I've worked for
Be ripped and torn apart

Leave me be
Turn your back and walk away
I shame myself
For all the things I let you do to me

BLIND

Try as I do I don't see you
Standing right next to me
My eyes burn with tears and I fear
That I'm losing myself again

Where did you go
Where are you coming from
Why can't I see you
Standing right next to me
The pressure inside I can't take
And I find that I cannot breathe
and I can't breathe

For years I have seeked you
Looking with weary eyes so tired
So very tired
For years I have found nothing but
Emptiness and loneliness inside me
Deep inside me

Sometimes I see your reflection
But I'm not quick enough
Sometimes I feel your hand touching mine
As I sleep at night
As I sleep at night

The longing I feel is too strenuous
Please help me find you
Standing right next to me
I know that you're there, but you're not
there
And I can't take it anymore
I can't take it anymore

I've done all that I can and I'll keep going
All that I can for you
All I can for you
Someday I'll know what it means to be alive
And I'll find you, standing right next to me

Where did you go
Where are you coming from
Why can't I see you
Standing right next to me
The pressure inside I can't take
ANd I find that I cannot breathe
and I can't breathe

DISSONANCE

Life will move in patterns
Circling for all time
Repeating all accomplishments
Repeating all the failures
Life will end in patterns

Laid out for all to see
Eyes are closed and cannot witness
What was never meant to be
Reap what you have sewn
Sew what you will reap
Continue on this cycle
And die in disbelief

Take what you have wanted
Take what you don't need
Live a life of crapulence
And die in bitter greed

Parasitic culture
Dissonance in waves
No one hears the outcome
Forgetting all we gave

Parasitic culture
Dissonance in waves
Sacrifice the faceless
And justify the slaves

The world is too much with us
The world is not enough
To satisfy your hunger
The monster you've become

Running from persecution
Running for your crimes
The anger and the hatred
Will eat you from inside

Inconsequential actions
Inconsequential fears
Drive terror through the masses
They scream and no one hears

Uncaring for the outcome
Uncaring for your soul
Take a look in the mirror
And release what you've sold

FROZEN

Yesterday is gone
Tomorrow seems too empty
Time keeps passing by
Passing me too quickly
Afraid of what I feel
Afraid of moving forward
I turn towards the sky
And watch it tumble downwards

All my life to live
The reasons all escape me
Nothing can suffice
All I know is misery
Afraid of what I feel
Afraid of moving forward
Lies surrounding lies
Life without a purpose

So close to giving up
Can't help but wonder why
On the verge of letting go
I'm so empty deep inside
And I am all alone
No one hears me screaming
So far away from home
And I am frozen through

I feel I'm shutting down
Outlook growing cold
My senses burning out
And finally I go numb
Afraid of what I feel
Afraid of moving forward
The heartache and the pain
Will bleed me dry again

So close to giving up
Can't help but wonder why
On the verge of letting go
I'm so empty deep inside
And I am all alone
No one hears me screaming
So far away from home
And I am frozen through

GONE

Erase your existence
It couldn't matter less
Take a breath of life
And sink into the darkness
Forget your intelligence
It wouldn't save a thing
In a land of invalids
With an apathetic king

Forgotten sprawl of wasteland
A fragile home for some
Backwards falling structures
An omen of what's to come
Memory must fail me
Shuffle off this skin
Remove all traces of humanness
And expose what lies within

Let it fall to ruin
Let heaven fall apart
Through away the emptiness
And watch them all depart
Let it fall to ruin
Let the plagues carry on
Throw away your own self worth
'Cause everything is gone

Give in to the pestilence
Avoid the rising sun
Return to ash from whence you came
There's no where left to run
You see the world through lenses
That block out all reality
Someday you may lose them
Just another casualty

HAUNTED

I wear this crown of pain
For all the world to see
Like a twisted badge of honor
For all the world to see
And like a gentle whisper
My voice will carry on
The silence drives you to madness
As it will when I am gone

Look upon my picture
Can you see me there?
A subtle hint of innocence
Although my heart will tear
Thought I am not present
Though I have moved on
I'll be here to remind you
Of exactly what you've done

I can't forgive you
No matter what you do
Though I may be empty
Though my time is through
I won't release you
From yourself until
Your fate has been completed
Your destiny fulfilled

Do you feel regret?
Have you any guilt?
Your conscience must still haunt you
In the life that you have built
I am not so bitter
As to wish you pain
Fate can be much crueler
Than I could hope to explain

LOCKED AWAY

There's a wall that stands between us
Something niether one of us can see
Protection from the world outside
And most of all from me.
Years of torture and deceit
Have made your fortress strong
Maybe all are out to harm you
Just as you are never wrong.

You doubted my intentions
Left me graplling with fear
My words were not sincere enough
For your hardened heart to hear.
Thousand miles may lay between us
May as well be down the hall
You close out all around you
So no one's near at all.

Set me free
I've no faith in anything I see
Look at what you've down with your dishonesty
Leave me be
I don't need your callous sympathy
For I'm not as weak as I appear to be.

Maybe things were different
Though nothing's changed at all
Now my stregth is failing
Can't catch you when you fall
You have no need of me
And set out on your own
When the world comes down around you
You'll find yourself alone.

Years will come in silence
Only memories will remain
Peace will not come easy
A token of distain
So let your hope be silent
Though there's nothing there at all
Sleep will not come easy
As the rain begins to fall.

MARTYR

I've stood here waiting for so long
Waiting for an answer
That will never come
That will never come

Years roll by and nothing changes
I feel so close and yet so far away
So Very far away
Years roll by and nothing changes
I feel so close and yet so far away
So Very far away

Judge me not for what it seen
I'll let goes unspoken carry me
I'll let it carry me

Should I stand here and wait to see
If the soldier inside makes a martyr out of me
Makes a martyr out of me.

MOURN

Just one more cigarette
And then I'll move on
Just one last chance to talk
And then I'll be gone
So much left to do
There's so much left to say
Each time I close my eyes
I don't want to look away
Each time I say goodbye
It's all I'm forced to say
There's so much left for you
There's so little left of me
These broken little words
Are all I've left to give
These fragile little thoughts
I beg you to forgive
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
Just one last cigarette
I promise this is it
I've nothing left to say
I'll live with this regret
You fade away from me
I fade away from you
The time has finally come
So now I must move on
Will you ever think of me
When I am gone
Just don't mourn for me
The way I mourn for you

OVERCOME

Lost in a world of hate
Where everything is wrong
Never need to sedate
Everyone is unfeeling
All too often it seems
We watch our lives lay barren
For all the death we've seen
Have yet to understand it

Where are all the answers
Where is all the hope
When did all this happen
And how do we overcome?

A thousand years have passed
And all still look to stone
For meaning that will last
For thousands of years to come
But what has all this brought
A thousand years of bloodshed
In the name of stone
Misleading and degrading

Where are all the answers
Where is all the hope
When did all this happen
And how do we overcome?
Lie and say it's perfect
Tell me all is well
Let me keep believing
There's no purpose for a hell

All is quiet now
Everything is too surreal
I watch and wonder how
All have somehow left this place
Abandoned for the sake
Of the ones that went before
Never such a mistake
As that which took the faith away

PERFECT SKY

The sky's so perfect I could scream
As if I've not woken from this dream
I feel a terror seeping in
Something just beneath the skin
Everything feels wrong
Everything is wrong with me

The stars kept staring back at me
Hiding something I can't see
All these memories flooding back
Filling up the heart I lack
Everything is wrong
Everything feels wrong with me

Such familiar horizon
Comforts me as it always has
A pale glow shall soon wash over
Leading to the home I never had
Everything feels wrong
Everything is wrong with me

A world devoid of inspiration
And I have never felt so weak
I seem to see myself as a failure
The old mirror so oblique
And yet I breathe each day
And yet I breathe each day
As if to prove I am alive

A simple mark of desparation
As I throw my mind away
A fleeting spark of inspiration
Of the words I cannot say
Everything feels wrong
And everything is wrong with me
Everything feels wrong
Everything is wrong
Everything feels wrong
Everything is wrong with me.

QUICKSAND EFFECT

And here I am alone once more
The same as many years before
And now I see that what makes me
Is fading rapidly
As soon I'll be right back to the start
With hollow words and a heavy heart
How could any of this be?
I'm fading rapidly

I can feel it slipping away
My precious grasp on reality
My little world and all I see
Is fading rapidly
I never thought it'd end this way
You'll understand it all someday
I won't drag you down with me
I'm fading rapidly

I'm sorry I was ever here
Erase me from your memories
Please don't cry for me
I'm only bleeding
I'm sorry I can't dry your tears
Forget that I existed
It's just too late for me
I'm only bleeding

I write these words for all to hear
But no one seems to care
One last step is left for me
I'm fading rapidly
There's so much that's left to say
As my voice is fading away
I once was blind but now I see
I'm fading rapidly

QUIET FURY

There's a light out in the distance
Shining out for me
Perhaps now I may find solace
And all this was meant to be

I am lost
That may never change
I might someday forgive myself
From that which I am chained
I am lost
And I may not be found
Let what I have left behind
Stay buried in the ground

The light coming closer
Almost near enough to touch
Though I may be bleeding
It's not yet been too much

I am lost
That may never change
I might someday forgive myself
From that which I am chained
I am lost
But finally heading back
Miles to go before I rest
And the sky is turning black

REGRET

I see the world before my eyes
Everything I love always dies
How could I survive
When my life isn't mine

I can't remember

There is a hole in my side
Where my pride used to be
My shattered ego runs and hides
Just for no one to see

I still can't remember

There is a place I can't go
A place where nothing moves
And as my heart begins to slow
In the tangled web I wove

I can't remember

I've always known my fate
To spend eternity searching
It's my love has long since died
Lord knows how hard I've tried

But I still can't remember
But I still can't remember

How could I ever live this long
When all I've loved is so far gone
A cruel twist of fate held me on
But soon enough I will be gone

Memories fade but pain is forever
But I still cannot remember
I can't remember
I can't remember
I can't remember
I can't remember.

STRAIN

There we stood upon the ridge
Awaiting the edge of dawn
Watching the skies for signs of life
Our faces lost in time
This foreign land on which we stand
Bears the marks of empathy
The final days of sweat and strain
Will live in infamy

Our soldiers fled and our heroes bled
As the axis made its advance
False hopes remained though most disdained
There is nothing left to see
It's all gone way too far
Never thought of consequences
Forgetting where I've been
Yet I see it in my dreams

I can see the endless sky
I can feel the fire burning
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

The morning after strikes
The burning hammer falls
Looking down on fields of fallen
The future seems so bleak
But we cannot surrender
No we cannot surrender

I can see the endless sky
I can feel the fire burning
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

TORMENT

I once was found but now I'm lost Among a sea of
endless faces Retribution for my sins And the ones I've
not committed Torrential rain and I walk on Beyond the
edge of the horizon And I have seen it all before But
I've not the soul to bear it. There is light and there
is dark And there is nothing in between And as sure as
any other I will suffer as I've been I've found pride
and I've found shame And it eats me up inside Through
the anger of the storm And I will wait here evermore
Seven days I've stood alone Reflecting on all of my
actions Staring at the distant lights That paint the
heaven's nightfall And never think about the past And
all the things that had to happen It's all forgotten in
the end And nothing ever truly matters. Strain --------
There we stood upon the ridge Awaiting the edge of dawn
Watching the skies for signs of life Our faces lost in
time This foreign land on which we stand Bears the
marks of empathy The final days of sweat and strain
Will live in infamy Our soldiers fled and our heros
bled As the axis made its advance False hopes remained
though most disdained There is nothing left to see It's
all gone way too far Never thought of consequences
Forgetting where I've been Yet I see it in my dreams I
can see the endless sky I can feel the fire burning
Where do we go from here? Where do we go from here? The
morning after strikes The burning hammer falls Looking
down of fields of fallen The future seems so bleak Our
strength is growing weak But we cannot surrender No we
cannot surrender. Dissonance ---------------- Life will
move in patterns Circling for all time Repeating all
accomplishments Repeating all the failures Life will
end in patterns Laid out for all to see Eyes are closed
and cannot witness What was never meant to be Reap what
you have sewn Sew what you will reap Continue on this
cycle And die in disbelief Take what you have wanted
Take what you don't need Live a life of crapulence And
die in bitter greed Parasitic culture Dissonance in
waves No one hears the outcome Forgetting all we gave
Parasitic culture Dissonance in waves Sacrifice the
faceless And justify the slaves The world is too much
with us The world is not enough To satisfy your hunger
The monster you've become Running from persecution
Running for your crimes The anger and the hatred Will
eat you from inside Inconsequential actions
Inconsequential fears Drive terror through the masses
They scream and no one hears Uncaring for the outcome
Uncaring for your soul Take a look in the mirror And
release what you've sold. Frozen --------- Yesterday is
gone Tomorrow seems to empty Time keeps passing by
Passing me too quickly Afraid of what I feel Afraid of
moving forward I turn towards the sky And watch it
tumble downwards All my life to live The reasons all
escape me Nothing can suffice All I know is misery
Afraid of what I feel Afraid of moving forward Lies
surrounding lies Life without a purpose So close to
giving up Can't help but wonder why On the verge of
letting go I'm so empty deep inside And I am all alone
No one hears me screaming So far away from home And I
am frozen through I feel I'm shutting down Outlook
growing cold My senses burning out And finally I go
numb Afraid of what I feel Afraid of moving forward The
heartache and the pain Will bleed me dry again.

UNFULFILLED

I watched the turrets fall
Watched crumble into ashes
I heard the midnight call
The sweetest sound of nothingness

I saw the omen come
Saw it fall into the sea
It burned all through the night
And left a world of nothingness

When all is said and done
When all the lights go out
I am left to take the reigns
To see to all that's unfulfilled
When all is said and done
When all the lights go out
I am left to take the pain
And see to all that's unfulfilled

Stare into my eyes
I see the world as it should be
All along I hear my voice
Screaming at a wall of nothingness

So many years in here
I've wasted all my time
Dreams lay scattered to the wind
The hollow wind of nothingness