3. March 4

left with spring alone
I withdraw from this
I lived so differently
it wasn't good enough

I was with you alone
winter was gone

things once blurred are twice sharpened
when I think of what I could have
blood has left me even before you
can never return a second time

I lived so differently
did it all for it
but everything is now
a film on rewind

Tonight's Music (EP,2001)



1. Tonight's Music
2. Help Me Disappear
3. O How I Enjoy The Light

1. Tonight's Music

who could call my name without regretting
who could see beyond this my darkness
and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun

how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness
would anyone follow me further down
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong
not with the world but me

who could call my name without regretting
who could promise to never destroy me
tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of her

2. Help Me Disappear

to completely dissolve,
what method is used
i cannot sleep,
my hands are bruised
there's a hole in the wall,
torn up anew
one dead eye,
the colour of you

to vanish for life
and promise to stay
away from the knowing,
bird in a cage
i'd give so much
for the courage to go
if i ask for your help,
then you will know

so help me disappear
or to believe in a change
no way out of here
that i can see
or the nightmares that burn
into my head at night
make them disappear
so i can breathe

looked out the window twice,
just to be sure
that noone was standing
outside the door
but it's just as calm
as it was before
they're all gone now,
not there anymore

isolated myself
for the sake of freedom
i clenched my fist
for the sake of kindness
i read a book full of strange
words
loneliness is a disease

3. O How I Enjoy The Light

[written by Will Oldham, published by royal stable music (ascap)]

it's us i liken to a covey
a polar bear has breached a
pup
the palace walls are
strewn with tapestries
and the window panes are
splintered and shattered
with a crumbled dog
on every landing
and every stranger cowers
the dress is torn,
the tone demanding
the canine's latent strength

and would her loins
would yield a yelp
a beating purr to steal the
time with
here's where we walk,
hand in hand
o how i despise it
o how i enjoy the light
of the first morning forever
wisdom, wealth tag
on like afterbirth
i will love you forever

and if i don't
and if i do
the difference exists in a
fiction
the day has cooled,
the time will too
and we will call upon the light

Viva Emptiness (2003)



1. Ghost Of The Sun
2. Sleeper
3. Criminals
4. A Premonition
5. Will I Arrive
6. Burn The Remembrance
7. Wealth
8. One Year From Now
9. Walking By A Wire
10. Complicity
11. Evidence
12. Omerta
13. Inside The City Of Glass

1. Ghost Of The Sun

The thin darkness here
Not strong enough to make you appear
I once changed my style
When they said hello I said goodbye
I once played a role
I was out there marketing my soul

The city of glass that I live in
The coldness from my brothers skin

I trusted you you lied
It's all I hear a fucking lie
I don't give a shit it's over now
It's all I know you broke the vow

Truth is I have seen it come
Seen the ghost of the sun
Can't have it undone
In time we all call out for relief
See two lovers meet
Pass you on the street

2. Sleeper

O my your fever's high
I lay my hands upon you
O my haven't you heard
The truth is untrue

Now I'm breathing
I could not breathe until you did
I'm one second after you
Just a second after you

Someone inside your room
Who is it there behind you?
What does he want from you?

Sleeper what did you see?
I close the window to the street
Parents died and left their child
Unattented for a while

Sleeper's song will you listen to me sing
The bird is here I can see the edge of his wing
If you die now how can I then live on
Don't give up you must live on

You die now

3. Criminals

The way the light hits the road
The way I am unable to protect you
O I'm running away
I will never forgive myself
For running away from you

He came back to your house
I didn't take it as a promise
Always thought it was a lie
He went too far the fucker
It's not like I owe him money
This is different

So gather your strength and break free
Or you will surely die
Gather your strength don't follow me
'Cause I will surely die

The way my eyes cannot move
The way I hope to be protected
And for one moment I thought
That I was lost among the lights of houses

My dreams of violence
See them coming true

4. A premonition

Stand aside now no one will survice can't tell you how I know
In some time I will change my name and lay low
In the light you can see me walk down by the way
The one who did this to us well he got away

Keep it quiet here I will not tolerate your noise
This is where I listen for the forgiving voice

It haunts my dreams