4. Scarlet Heavens

only for the wind I lay myself down
feeling this scarlet scent of death
under ebony shades I dream of a child
dancing in heaven, dancing in heaven

I must have seen this face before
a monument of shallow sorrows
under ebony shades a child now dies
but grievance won't regain

something grasp for my soul
I think it's god
but my sorrow is dragging me down
through my sins

where is god in his heaven
why am I a twisted mind
now I see the light above
but in darkness I must fall

for my soul you pray at last
will I find my place?
the stench of sorrow that pierce my flesh
can never be pure

when the blackness overwhelms me
where shall I turn
to run away to never look back
to run away from evil

Tonights Decision (1999)



1. For My Demons
2. I Am Nothing
3. In Death, A Song
4. Had To (Leave)
5. This Punishment
6. Right Into The Bliss
7. No Good Can Come Of This
8. Strained
9. A Darkness Coming
10. Nightmares By The Sea
11. Black Session
12. No Devotion
13. Fractured

1. For My Demons

well I'm here
and summer is gone I hear
so pray for me
as I now leave your town
when did I say this
I will never leave
I can't recall this
moment in my life

you would never sleep at night
if you knew what I've been through
and this thought is all I have
to trust upon when light is gone

my problem was
that you kept me here too long
and today is when
we'll regret that I came by
when did I say this
I will never leave
I can't recall this
moment in my life

life is full of darkness
and murderers come my way
someday you will join them
and I will let you in

2. I Am Nothing

tonight I'm nothing
it doesn't matter where I've been
delay of reaction is
the unseen movie of this life

I remember one of my friends
telling me to go ahead

water on every side
there's a dead spot in my eye
if I listen close at night
there's something coming my way

like someone called my name
but I didn't care to look that way
I just fixed my eyes into the crowd
it would have been strange to turn around

if you would tell me that I was someone
then for a second I would think
just like I would try to consider
how it would feel to know

I have to get on with this
it's a decision for tonight
out to look for chances
it is murder of my mind

once I was someone new
I was chosen for a while
then with time I am changing
at least that is what they say

what is worth with being here
I pray so often for a change

3. In Death, A Song

you came back to a place without sun
and you don? t seem to know what you've done
to me
now I see
darkness is what you left in me

you went with nothing to fear
came back with nothing to lose
and with summer leaving us here now
we? re thinking of what to chose

I know so well what is wrong
a language that is hard to speak
for all of us lies in death a song
in times when truth is turning weak

4. Had To (Leave)

so you were with us until the last minute
and then you were gone from here
and I watched and I just figured out
that I will never see you again

I had a choice
you had to leave
into the night
this was my choice

it's so hard to explain what I meant
when I said that I wanted you dead
but I saw you fuck up and I just can't get back
the feeling I had for you

so I put all my strength into my only will
it was the only thing to do
and now I only regret that I cried
cause you would never do that for me

5. This Punishment

will I be strong
no friends by my side
in a black room
no spirits abide

who is judge now
when I wait for this
punishment

when I come in
from where I've been
they raise their voices
on a given signal

6. Right Into The Bliss

by a black road
giving a brief smile
something's on the way
forgotten for a while
and you try to speak this
without a voice down by a black road
we try to forget and try to make it through

someday we'll go
further from this right into the bliss
some night we'll try
to leave this place for another

they keep pushing me
so far from every chance
makes it so much harder
for me to carry on
so I try to speak this
without a thought down by a black road
we try to forget and try to make it through

7. No Good Can Come Of This

this is no good way out
but it's a challenge or so I see it
death's head upon my wall
afield lies nothing but disorder

no good can come of this
whatsoever I can tell you
no good will ever come of this
the road to happiness I never knew

I read a letter I never sent
and saw me smiling on a picture
this is nothing I remember
whatever made me feel so

there are children
on the freeway
I have my ways
playing with death

8. Strained

end
sometimes a start for others
end
I don't know the word beginning

sometimes fear is power
like when I lost control
this time it has to come to an end

I'd like to try to live my life again
I'd like to see where I was going wrong