"Almost Easy (CLA Mix)"
 
I feel insane
Every single time I'm asked to compromise
'Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By the look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy

Shame pulses through my heart from the things I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin but deep inside I'm not insane

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... not insane

(Mother)

Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I've tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
I'm losing the fight, I've treated you so wrong now let me make it right
(Make it alright)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
(Ha ha ha ha ha)
I'm not insane, I'm not... Not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

"Afterlife (Alternate Version)"
 
Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen.
So unsure but it seems, 'cause we've been waiting for you.
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste.
Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway.

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right.
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be,
Arrived too early.

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong,
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far.

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear, escape from this afterlife.
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here.

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain.
Can leave this place but refrain, 'cause we've been waiting for you.
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste.
Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway.

This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall).
No pain or sign of time (I'm much too young to fall).
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign.
I've made up my mind.

Give me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye.
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life.

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife.
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here.
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you.
This place full of peace and light, and I'd hoped you might,
Take me back inside, when the time is right.

Loved ones back home all crying 'cause they're already missing me.
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening.
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be.
(Who are you? I'm broken, I'm choking on this ecstasy.)
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live.)

[Screaming and maniacal laughter]

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife.
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here.
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you.
This place full of peace and light, and I'd hoped you might,
Take me back inside when the time is right.
 

Nightmare (2010)



1.   Nightmare
2.   Welcome To The Family
3.   Danger Line
4.   Buried Alive
5.   Natural Born Killer
6.   So Far Away
7.   God Hates Us
8.   Victim
9.   Tonight The World Dies
10.   Fiction
11.   Save Me
12.   Lost It All

"Nightmare"
 
Nightmare!
(Now your nightmare comes to life)

Dragged ya down below, down to the devils show,
To be his guest forever (Peace of mind is less than never!)
Hate to twist your mind, but God ain't on your side,
An old acquaintance severed (burn the world your last endeavor!)

Flesh is burning, you can smell it in the air,
Cause men like you have such an easy soul to steal (steal)
So stand in line while they ink numbers in your head,
you're now a slave until the end of time here,
Nothing stops the madness turning, haunting, yearning, pull the trigger!

You should have known the price of evil,
And it hurts to know that you belong here, yeah
Oooooh, it's your fuckin' nightmare!
(While your nightmare comes to life)

Can't wake up in sweat, cause it ain't over yet,
still dancin' with your demons (Victim of your own creation)
Beyond the will to fight, where all that's wrong is right
Where hate don't need a reason (loathing self-assassination)

You've been lied to just to rape you of your site,
and now they have the nerve to tell you how to feel (feel)
So sedated as they medicate your brain
and while you slowly go insane the tell ya:
Given with the best intentions help you with your complications!

You should have known the price of evil,
And it hurts to know that you belong here, yeah.
No one to call, everybody to fear,
Your tragic fate is looking so clear, yeah.
Oooooh, it's your fuckin' nightmare, ha-ha-ha-ha!

Fight (fight), not to fail (fail), not to fall (fall)
Or you'll end up like the others.
Die (die), die again (die), drenched in sin (sin)
With no respect for another.

Down (down), feel the fire (fire), feel the hate (hate)
Your pain is what we desire.
Lost (lost), hit the wall (wall), watch you crawl (crawl)
Such a replaceable liar.

And I know you hear their voices (calling from above),
And I know they may seem real (these signals of love),
But our life's made up from choices (some without appeal),
They took for granted your soul, and it's ours now to steal
(As your nightmare comes to life!)

You should have known the price of evil,
And it hurts to know that you belong here, yeah.
No one to call, everybody to fear,
Your tragic fate is looking so clear, yeah
Oooooh, it's your fucking nightmare!

"Welcome To The Family"
 
Hey kids! (hey kids)
Do I have your attention?
I know the way you've been living
Life's so reckless, tragedy endless
Welcome to the family

Hey!
There's something missing
Only time will alter your vision
Never in question, lethal injection
Welcome to the family

Not long ago you'd find the answers were so crystal clear
Within a day you found yourself living in constant fear
Can you look at yourself now?
Can you look at yourself?
You can't win this fight

And in a way it seems there's no one to call
When our thoughts are so numb and
Our feelings unsure
We all have emptiness inside,
We all have answers to find
But you can't win this fight!

Hey kids!
I have to question
What's with the violent aggression?
Details blurry, lost him too early
Welcome to the family

Hey!
Why won't you listen?
Can't help the people you're missing
It's been done, a casualty re-run
Welcome to the family

I try and help you with the things that can't be justified
I need to warn you that there is no way to rationalize
So have you figured it out now?
So have you figured it out?
You can't win this fight

And in a way it seems there's no one to call
When our thoughts are so numb and
Our feelings unsure
We all have emptiness inside,
We all have answers to find
But you can't win this fight!

Gunning for you and all mankind,
I've lost my mind
Psychotic rabid dementia
I won't be fine

I see, you're a king who's been dethroned
Cast out, in a world you've never known
Stand down, place your weapons by your side
It's our war, in the end we'll surely lose but that's alright!

So have you figured it out now?
So have you figured it out?

And in a way it seems there's no one to call
When our thoughts are so numb and
Our feelings unsure
We all have emptiness inside,
We all have answers to find
But you can't win this fight

Deep inside,
where nothing's fine
I lost my mind
You're not invited,
so step aside
I've lost my,

Deep inside,
where nothing's fine
I lost my mind
You're not invited,
so step aside
I've lost my...

"Danger Line"
 
My sixteen, locked and loaded
All fear has been aborted
You say the words and my weapon is drawn

This one could be my last time
Some people call it war crime
I may be staring down a lethal sight

(To die)
Nothing shocks you like a bullet hole
Leaving my fear on the danger line
Suffering a man should never know
Leaving my faith on the danger line

I do this for my family
My daughter loves her daddy
Too many talk down on things they don't know

With colors never faded
Reckless and unabated
They may take me but never take us all

(I'll crawl)
Nothing shocks you like a bullet hole
Leaving my fear on the danger line
Suffering a man should never know
Leaving my faith on the danger line

I know what you're thinking
I've been there before
So think of the times, the time we spent laughing away
So think of the times at home
(Life without a care)

Now I find myself in my own blood
(Never thought I'd lay in my own blood)
The damage done is far beyond repair
I never put my faith in up above
(Never had much faith in up above)
But now, I'm hoping someone's there

I never meant to leave this world alone
I never meant to hurt the ones who cared
And all this time I thought we'd just grow old
You know, no one said it's fair

Tell my baby girl that "It's alright"
I've sung my last song today
Remind the lord to leave his light on for me
I'm free

"Buried Alive"
 
Take the time just to listen
When the voices screaming are much too loud
Take a look in the distance
Try and see it all
Chances are that ya might find
That we share a common discomfort now
I feel I'm walking a fine line
Tell me only if it's real

Still I'm on my way
On and on it goes
Vacant hope to take

Hey I can't live in here for another day
Darkness has kept the light concealed
Grim as ever
Hold on to faith as I dig another grave
Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel
Real as ever
And it seems I've been buried alive

I walked the fields through the fire
Taking steps until I found solid ground
Followed dreams reaching higher
Couldn't survive the fall
Much has changed since the last time
And I feel a little less certain now
You know I jumped at the first sign
Tell me only if it's real

Memories seem to fade
On and on it goes
Wash my view away

Hey I can't live in here for another day
Darkness has kept the light concealed
Grim as ever
Hold on to faith as I dig another grave
Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel
Real as ever
And I'm chained like a slave
Trapped in the dark
Slammed all the locks
Death calls my name
And it seems I've been buried alive

Take you down now
Burn it all out
Throw you all around
Get your fuckin' hands off me
What's it feel like
Took the wrong route
Watch it fall apart
Now you're knockin' at the wrong gate
For you to pay the toll
A price for you alone
The only deal you'll find
I'll gladly take you soul
While it seems sick sober up quick
Psycho lunatic crushing you with hands of fate
Shame to find out when it's too late
But you're all the same
Trapped inside inferno awaits
Evil thoughts can hide
I'll help release the mind
I'll peel away the skin
Release the dark within

This is now your life
Strike you from the light
This is now your life
Die buried alive
This is now your life
Strike you from the light
This is now your life
Die buried alive
This is now your life
Die buried alive

"Natural Born Killer"
 
One snap for the dying
One click to end the day
Another story with a mangled scene
It couldn't happen any other way

You wanna talk about it?
I'm begging you to walk in my shoes anytime
Watch the clock 'til you unwind
You wanna cry about it,
It's making me consider that I lost my mind.
The way I see you must be blind

So this is the world you left behind
This is the guilt that consumes you

So die alone
This is the one thing that I won't do
So say your prayers
'Cause I ain't leaving here without you

Can't bribe me with money
Can't shower me with shame
Another killer from a broken home
Until you covered me with manic fame.

You wanna know about it,
But I'm a be fuckin' with you every time.
Story broke and you're behind
And when you ask about it,
You can rest assured I'll give you my best side
Seems we all have friends to find

So this is the hate I've been born to
Full are the tales of the untrue

So die alone
This is the one thing that I won't do
So say your prayers
'Cause I ain't leaving here without you

And I'm waiting
Waiting for the days to slowly pass me by
(and all the promises I'll find)
No hesitating,
You pull the trigger and your story's left behind.
(I know you wanna see me fry)
Like my soul you won't survive.

So die alone
This is the one thing that I won't do
So say your prayers
'Cause I ain't leaving here without you

To die unknown
Would crush the fish lens we all see through
To kill the glare
Expose the ugliness we hold true

"So Far Away"
 
Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say but you're so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to, need you to know

"God Hates Us"
 
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!

You wanna hear my side?
You need to drown to know.
With all the times it hurt me to fuck you,
I built a wall with your blood to show!

GOD SAVE US!
GOD SAVE US ALL!
GOD HATES US!
GOD HATES US ALL!

TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!

Nothing to heal.
No one to break.
Pills had a role
Now there's nothing to take.
Nothing to trust.
No one to fake.
You'll find out sooner
That it's best if we just know our place

My infiltrated mind.
My lacerated soul.
It took me years, create me, control you.
I left myself for an idea I stole

GOD SAVE US!
GOD SAVE US ALL!
GOD HATES US!
GOD HATES US ALL!

TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!

LIAR, RAPE, KILL
LOVE, HATE, FEAR

You better take your time
(LIAR, RAPE, KILL)
You better take it slow
Cause when you seek the one
(LOVE, HATE, FEAR)
There's nothing left to show.

TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
TOTAL NIGHTMARE!