Somnambulistic


Sleepwalk your way through this dying hell
Strive to keep our heads above the waterline
No hope just a ratwheel of aching days
System changes tide from low to high
Kneel your way through this lying game
If they pass us their backs lie free
Sleepwalk your way through this dying hell
Beaten down by the invincible pain
This life the lives remaining stains
Betrayal seeks the missing piece
Try to line in the hands hopelessness crawl beneath and hide to die
Burden of birth they gave you hell
Like ice shattering under feet
A broken fucked up mind breaks easily like leaves fallen their tree
A dried out soul dies away this year
Crawl beneath and hide to die
Burden of birth they gave you hell
I am falling endlessly
Blackened shattered dead crippled existence
We crawled for crumbs spilled our passion
We washed our tears in dedication

Stillborn persistence


[track 10 also]

No more words won't hear no more won't see no more
Been so long on my knees now
Father patriarch burn thy kingdom down
Exhausted within can't take another day
I hate this world as I hate myself as I hate the ones who gave me life

Surrender


[verse one:]
bring to life my fading dreams,
pave the road that leads to change,
clear my conscience, tonight,

fill the void inside of me,
heal these eyes so i can see,
i want it to be you,

[chorus:]
before tonight is over,
say goodbye forever,
give my life to you,
(my old ways are no good),
before my dreams are shattered,
and i can't remember,
my way back to you, give it all to you,

[verse two:]
yesterday when i was
sinking down and almost gone,
you're lifeboat rescued me,

i was weak and fading fast,
but you then gave me hope to last,
i know that it was you,

[chorus:]

the surrender i felt,
when i gave you my heart,
left me standing praying for the rain,

[chorus:]

before tonight is over,
before my dreams are shattered,
i'll bring it back...
(...to me),
back...
(...to you),
back...
(...to me),
to you

Trauma is the trigger


A step towards tomorrow moving slow from yesterday
Never again the darkness seems to follow
I have no future I just want to die
Heavy guilt mine to keep
Weight of depression cannot rise above
Try to hide as it drags me deeper
Mind full of hatred suicidal urge
Aching eyes count deceivers
Tried so hard nothing works
Crawling towards a fairly grave
Trauma is the trigger the aim you gave
Life so meaningless day by day
Different shades of rage
Cant think can't think straight
I laid on you all the things i miss
Precious death set me here
Fragile little mind blessed with a fist

Who you are

take away everything i'm wanting,
take everything i know,
life is wasted on the things
we cannot find,
why don't you leave now,
or change your mind,

(i can't feel anything) when your gone,

when your world is crashing down,
remember who you are,
remember how you've come so far,
when all hope seems to disappear,
look inside your heart,
look inside your heart,

carry me, i know i'm not where i belong,
i need to be with you,
'cause i'm higher than you know
i'm gonna show you the unknown,
i am now for real,

(i can't feel anything) when your gone,

find who you are,
find who you are, oh,

yeah

Will gladly perish


Dragged through the pain once again
From this I'll gladly perish
Dragged through the pain once again
Hopeless from this I'll gladly perish
Meaningless growth in these scars of your fucking regrets
Torture drowning... Choking beneath the surface of wrath,
Led through the darkness guided by the soothing hate
From this unwanted existence I'll gladly perish
Dragged through the pain once again
From this I'll gladly perish...