File 13


I sleep until there is no light.
I'm wide awake all through the night.
Dinner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can.
My muscles stiffen through the day.
Discomfort never goes away.
Someone should throw me away. I feel like a garbage can.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit.
I am useless. I know I know nothing at all.
I'd take a stand, but I know I'd fall.
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster.
Girls laugh and pass me on the street.
I spook out everyone I meet.
I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit.
I am useless. I never seem to feel well.
I always seem to look like hell.
It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb.
My mom thinks I wear women's clothes.
I get dogged on at all the shows.
It seems that everybody knows I look like a fucking bum.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit. I am useless.

Fishbowl


I'm here today, just like every yesterday.
Heavy heat, and the sheets stick to my skin.
Can't get away from nothingness.
I try to get up, but I have to give into the force that is keeping me down.
I overcome gravity, I look outside.
A cat cries out, trapped upon a window sill,
but its crying's drowned out by my screaming inside.
What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed outside,
would I be safe? When will it break.
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break.
Sirens moan. They're forever crying... someone's probably dying.
The sound sticks inside my head. Talk to myself, I'm company,
but who is to say if nothing is said?
Two windows stare back at me.
Three stories high and nothing is new.
I may sit, but someday I'll stand.
I'll muster up the will and fire myself through.
What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed outside,
would I be safe? When will it break.
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break.
What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed outside,
would I be safe? When will it break.
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break.

Girl's not grey


I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Swim in the calm tonight
This art does drown

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
What follows

All insects sing tonight
The coldest sound
I'd send God's grace tonight
Could it be found?

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased

I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Watch stars go out tonight
On sinking ground

I'll lay me down, I'll lay me down

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased

What follows will swallow whole
What follows will swallow whole

God called in sick today


Let's admire the pattern forming. Murderous filigree.
I'm caught in the twisting of the vine. Go ascend with ivy, climbing.
Ignore and leave for me the headstone crumbling behind. I can't help my laughter as she cries.
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, I'll let animosity unwind.
Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so shamefully. I'll still feel the violence of the lines.
I can't stand my laughter as they cry. My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence.

half-empty bottle


The ends don't always justify the means,
but I know what it takes to get what I
need, I've got the cure when passive protest just won't do...just flick my
Bic as I hold it to the fuse.
Smash it up.
Break it down.
Bring it down, down to the ground.
Tear it up.
Burn it down.
Burn
it down, down to the ground.
How long have we waited for the day when they tighten their grips
and we slip away?
The sound of breaking glass drives me back up.
It makes me whole, when I've been down on my luck.

Halloween


[The Misfits Cover Song]

Bonfires burning bright
Pumpkin faces in the night
I remember halloween
Dead Cats hanging from poles
Little Dead are out in droves
I remember Halloween
Brown Leafed Vertigo
Where skeletal life is known
I remember Halloween
This day anything goes
Burning bodies hanging from poles
I remember Halloween

Halloweeeeen
Halloweeeeen
Halloweeeeen
Halloween!

Candy apples and razor blades
Little dead are soon in graves
I remember Halloween
This day anything goes
Burning bodies hanging from poles
I remember Halloween

He who laughs last


No trust can be given freely, it's a valuable commodity,
but obviously this is something you've never learned.
Faith is something that you put in friends, and had I excess morals to lend,
I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
No bond can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship,
but one thing that never comes between us is honesty.
When you have something to say, you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never in your plans to be straight forward,
so instead, you use deceit.
Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking from the start.
I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
No trust!

Head like a hole


[Originally by Nine Inch Nails]

God money i'll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to.
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don't want everything he wants it all.

No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.

Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.

God money's not looking for the cure.
God money's not concerned with the sick amongst the pure.
God money let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money's not one to choose

Hidden track


I cannot leave here, I cannot stay
Forever haunted, more than afraid
Asphyxsiate on words I would say
I'm drunk to a blackened sky as I turn blue

There are no flowers, no not this time
There'll be no angels, gracing the lines
Just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak
Just how much this hurts me

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave
Just like all I loved, I make believe
Imagine hard, I disappear...seems
No one to love here, here to make leave

There are no flowers, no not this time
There'll be no angels, gracing the lines
Just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak
Just how much this hurts me

I'll tell you how it wants me
I'll tell you how it haunts
I'll tell you how it wants me
You don't get it, it haunts me

OH!
There are no flowers, no not this time
There'll be no angels, gracing the lines
Just these stark words I find.
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak
Just how much this hurts me
Just how much this hurts me
Just how much you...

High school football hero


I wanna be a highschool football hero.
With an S.A.T. score less than zero. I wanna
try to drink my weight in beer-o. I wanna be a highschool football hero.
I wanna score a touchdown so I can score after the game.
I don't care about my future 'cause it is just another day.
I'll rush for forty yards and drink four forties later on. I'm done with
this brunette someone pass me another blonde.
Coach tells me to drink my milk and wash it down with 'roids.
I've gotta get my rest so I can
party with the boys.
My brain is upside-down, so I'm just a little slow.
I'll change my name to
Bubba so that everyone will know...