My Lovely Enigma

they're so forbidden
the thoughts that spill out
they strongly pull at me
the emotions I'm supposed to go without
words spoken only confuse me
leaving my heart in doubt

Admiration and adoration
so easily confused
like and love
so often misused
your heart feels so much
but it's so easily accused

call it unspeakable
but i am unashamed
it's utterly inexpressible
caring not if I'm blamed
but the truth would shatter so much
so my secret remains unnamed

when do you decide
that they are indeed deserving
how long does the situation
require observing
will my heart choose chance
or will my lips betray and continue preserving?

time is my only answer
the only solution capable of bringing serenity
it will gradually emits the deciding light
the detective to my mystery
it will silence my worries and quench my thirst
filling me of what i am deserving, amenity

Rukie