THEN SO IT IS

Where am I going
Trying to regain control
But no matter
How I dress it up
I always end up alone

So why must I come here every time
I back myself against a wall
And why is it still so surprising to me
When I try to conquer
I fall

But I want to feel like a bird
Singing in an open cage
And I wanna be in a love
Where we are free to wonder
I want to lay down with my eyes shut
And let the mystic take my sadness
And if this is what you call madness
Then so it is

I drive
Myself crazy
Yeah crazy in a constant spin
That one day soon yeah know I

THINKING

I keep thinking I see you
When I'm sleeping I dream you
And my head's as heavy as the weight of my body
Your silence confuses me
What I want is an explanation
What I need is to be released
Cause part of me, yeah it's still holding onto you
Cause part of me likes to feel defeat

So what if this ?? the one thing is really real
And I screwed it up yeah to keep myself awake
Somewhere inside me I still believe
that I don't deserve to be loved this way
And what I want is an explanation
What I need, I need to be released
Cause part of me, yeah it's still holding on to you
Cause part of me, it likes to feel defeat

I keep thinking
I keep thinking

TIL YOU'RE DEAD

I'm thinking that you got some sort of hold on me
It's making me crazy
Making me crazy
N' I know my life it is sort of out of control
But you know my mind goes faster
Than any car on the road
'Cause I thought love was hard
So I tried with all my might
'N I thought love lasted
So I always stayed the night
Now I'm in your chair
And you are talking to me
I can see your lips moving
But I don't hear a thing
So pay attention I said
To my aching head
You know this is it you fool
You're gonna be with this one
'Til you're dead
So I'm taking a walk
Down to my favorite coffee shop
Sit down in the corner
And try to write down my thoughts
But all my thoughts are jumbled
Into some crazy state of grade
And well what I do but soothe it
With a picture of your face
'Cause I thought love was hard
So I tried with all my might
'N I thought love lasted
So I always stayed the night
Now I'm in your chair
And you talking to me
I can see your lips moving
But I don't hear a thing
So pay attention I said
To my aching head
You know this is it you fool
You're gonna be with this one
'Til you're dead
And I am thinking
Oh my God
You know how can this be
I have been waiting so long
For a love to be
And I know that I just talk too much
But tell me
Tell me baby
Don't look good enough for ya baby
Am I looking good enough for ya baby
'Cause I though love was hard
So I tried with all my might
'N I thought love lasted
So I always stayed the night
Now I'm in your chair
And you are talking to me
I can see your lips moving
But I don't hear a thing
So pay attention I said
To my aching head
You know this is it you fool
You're gonna be with this
'Til you're dead

TIME FLIES

Without you
I would never be scared
Without you
I would never dare
Go give in
To sin
To try and tell you why
I am the way I am
You blindfold me
Yeah you scold me
You teach me how to pretend
Yeah you teach me how to bend
Time flies
Just like you and I
And you are on your knees again
Praying to something
That I can't see
But somehow
You make me believe
Lights close
And so do my eyes
Yeah baby you have got the power to hypnotize
Just because this is not exactly what I thought it would be
That does not mean that I do not still dream
With this strength
I will fall down and get back up
I am young and my bones
They just don't want to give up
I will suck the air up
I will push my blood up
I will raise my feet up
Because you know
Times flies
Just like you and I
And you are on your knees again
Praying to something
That I can't see
But somehow
You make me believe
Time flies
Time flies

TO FEEL REAL

Ya you got what you wanted
Now you won't leave me alone
You call me up to come over
'Cause you're afraid to be alone

'N so you sit in this castle
Ya that someone else made
'N I'm just staring at you
While you tell me you know what it takes

Ya to really work hard
And to pay your dues
'N I'm just laughin' at you
Knowing you've been waiting your
Whole damn life
For someone to take care of you

We both know
You're coming apart at the seams
Please
Won't you spare me your lines
'Cause it's me here
And I know a little something about
What if feels like
Ya to not feel real

Cause you can't bullsh** a bullsh**ter
Hey I have known you for a while
I've seen you in plastic house shoes
'N I have held your hand walking
Down K-Mart aisles

I know your soul is beautiful
So why don't you just let it out
What's the worst that could happen
The real you could come out

We both know
You're coming apart at the seams
Please
Won't you spare me your lines
'Cause it's me here
And I know a little something about
What if feels like
Ya to not feel real

TO LET YOU SEE ME

Yeah that's me
yeah behind you
hoping that you won't see
that i am
not all they make me out to be

but oh to let you see me
cuz i am not that pretty
oh but you will find out
and then, you will leave me

so let me make up
all sorts of excuses
for why we, shouldn't do this
let me think that my heart is not involved
let me think we are just using each other
and we're equal in our faults

but oh to let you see me
cuz i am not that pretty
oh but you will find out and then
you will leave me

but all this nervous excitement
all these reasons to try and get it right
and all this procrastination
and all of this disobedient behavior
is making me crawl

but oh to let you see me
cuz i am not that pretty
oh but you will find out
and then, you will leave me

so let me pretend
that this isn't happening
let me deny my feelings
let me just talk and talk and talk
let me say that this something
is nothing at all

TROUBLE IN MY HEAD

I've got coffee on the table
Yeah the coffee table
And the first smoke of the day
And I am thinking that maybe
I'll think of something good to say
But my mind is traveling
Farther and farther away
'Cause the trouble in my head
Is getting closer and closer to my legs
I've got to walk it out
And the trouble with my heart
Is that I can't take it out
And the trouble with myself
Is that I don't know me
So if you find me
Would you kindly show me
The way home
I have got birds on my roof
that sing beautifully
And then there is me in the living room
And I am screaming to be free
I've got clothes in my bedroom
Yeah and they fit me right
And now I am thinking that maybe
I'll just get dressed up
And go out tonight
'Cause the trouble in my head
Is getting closer and closer to my legs
I've got to walk it out
And the trouble with my heart
Is that I can't rip it out
And the trouble with myself
Is that I don't know me
So if you fine me
Would you kindly show me
The way home
Yeah I know I've got a lot of time on my clock to spare
But not enough to make it from here to there
So if it's not where you're from but where you're at
Well what happens when you have forgotten that ...

WEIGHTLESS AND SLOW

If you're going down
Call me first
I see the edge
Of the water line
From the back yard
It's not that far
For me to go
All I need from you baby is an invitation

Your love is quiet
Slow and long
Like the scent of a lily
As we carry on
And it's not for me
To sit here and judge
The differences between us
As they play us

So cmon lets go
In up to our necks
We can watch the rise and fall
Hold my hand under the water
Yeah cmon lets go
To where our hearts are weightless and slow,
Where our hearts are weightless and slow

You're teaching me patience
And I'm teaching you fast
We are gravities definition
I fly, You catch
But we both think today...
Is really all we got
So if you're going down to the water's edge
Baby you better pick me up

Yeah c'mon lets go
In up to our necks
We can watch the rise and fall
Hold my hand under the water
Yeah c'mon lets go
To where our hearts are weightless and slow,
Where our hearts are weightless and slow

So if you're going down
You better call me first
I can see the edge of the water line,
I see the edge of the water line

So c'mon let's go
In up to our necks
We can watch the rise and fall
Hold my hand under the water
Yeah cmon lets go
To where our hearts are weightless and slow,
Where our hearts are weightless and slow

WELCOME TO MY LIFE

C'mon in, yeah welcome to my life
I get up in the morning
Grab a cup of coffee
Check out and pack my car
Kick it in 5th gear
75 won't get ya caught here
We're pulling in to one more city
Where, hey, from the looks of it
All the girls are pretty

So i promise to grab my soul
And leave my ego at the door
I'm gonna open up my eyes
So, c'mon sing along if ya wanna
Cry if ya hafta
Lean back into your lover's arms
Grab the hand of the person
standing right next to you
show them we are not afraid of who we are
nobody is afraid of who we are here

Yeah, see I have 4 bags, 2 guitars, my friend Jen
Who helps me remember that its the fans who got me
where I am
So if I close out a show and I m still 40 dollars in
the hole
You know, I just put the room on plastic
And sleep another night on an unfamiliar mattress
And wonder where you are.
I wonder where you are

So im gonna grab my soul
And leave my ego at the door
I'm gonna open up my eyes
So, c'mon sing along if ya wanna
Cry if ya hafta
Lean back into your lover's arms
Grab the hand of the person
Standing right next to you
Show them we are not afraid of who we are

C'mon in, yeah welcome to my life
I get up in morning grab a cup of coffee
Check out and pack my car

I wonder where you are, yeah where you are
Am i gonna meet you in Boise, Boston, in Chicago or New
Orleans
In Phoenix, Miami, in Atlanta or Des Moines
Am i gonna meet you in Cleveland, in Charleston
Chapel Hill or Detroit,
In Austin, Portland, in Arlington or Brooklyn
in Hartford, in Philly, in Los Angeles or New York City

Welcome to my life

WESTBOUND

Nothing but the sky now
I'm headed westbound
Take the freeway
Take the freeway

I'm all done
My body is tired
Late nights
Bottles talk

I'm all set
Alone in my car
A full tank of gas
With all the windows open

Nothing but the sky now
I'm headed westbound
Take the freeway
Take the freeway

Got the music on
For the best night driving
And when the blue hits
Another day is gone

Nothing but the sky now
I'm headed westbound
For the best night driving
Take the freeway
Nothing but the sky now
I'm headed westbound
Take the freeway
Take the freeway

Nothing but the sky now
I'm headed westbound
Going to take the freeway
Take the freeway
Take the freeway