Mournful serenade


Remember your carress so gentle
Remember your kiss so delightful
With tears running down my cheek
I sit here alone wondering - why?

Sing with me - this song of love so pure
Sing with me - this mournful serenade
Sing with me - this song of love so pure
Sing with me - this mournful serenade

The pain inside me is unbearable
My love for you stronger than ever
Why this sunf=dden departure
Why did you decide to end your own life

Sing with me - this song of love so pure
Sing with me - this mournful serenade
Sing with me - this song of love so pure
Sing with me - this mournful serenade

With the moon as my only light
I stare at the picture of you
With one shot I ended my life
So that we forever will be united

My last journey


Without noticing the pouring rain
I sliced my wrist with my knife
I couldn't ignore the endless pain
The last thing in my dreary life

"Dark clouds filled the open sky
My heart was filled with hate
I bent down on my knees and cried
Is this really my fate?"

"I'll never again see the sun rise
Cause now I'm in my eternal bed
Death is so sweet and nice
And I enjoy being dead"

On this, my last journey

My revenge to come


On my black horse I ride
Towards the end of time
By the christians you were sentenced and died
Burned at the stake to redeem your crime

As the autumn leaf in the purling rill
My people followed their lie
But for you sake my queen
I'll scournfully watch them die

My utter denial of their god
Makes me divine
Their death will be
The ultimate revenge of mine

Paradise


Gazing up to the blackened sky
Makes part of me slowly die
Among the clouds I can see a dove
The messenger of love

Follow it, they said, to paradise
Afterwards I hate them and their lies
It was the beginning of my demise

I've been in paradise, don't want to go back
It made my feelings go numb and black
I couldn't find the desire of my heart
It was far away and slowly breaking apart

Hypocrisy and lies
There is no fucking paradise
Looking for the love of my life
It isn't in your fucking paradise

I'm grasping for air, so thick I can't breathe
Inhale, exhale, asphyxiate
Among the clouds I can see a dove
The messenger of hate

Plague of mine


A voyage through time and eternity
Through sorrows, grief and pain
This fucking life - this fucking pain
An eternal plague of mine

This fucking life - this fucking pain
An eternal plague of mine

I soar in this level between life and death
Not knowing where I am heading
This total silence, this total calm
Makes me wanna die

This fucking life - this fucking pain
An eternal plague of mine

Eternal death is calling my name
The world below awaits me
My life finally laid to rest
The world below awaits me

I soar in this level between life and death
Not knowing where I am heading
This total silence, this total calm
Makes me wanna die

Eternal death is calling my name
The world below awaits me
My life finally laid to rest
The world below awaits me

A voyage through time and eternity
Through sorrows, grief and pain
This fucking life - this fucking pain
An eternal plague of mine

This fucking life - this fucking pain
An eternal plague of mine

Retention of illusion


Faithful believers of a nonexisting god
Waste all your life on your bare knees
Reality a word unknown
Passing your head with a gentle nod
Brainwashed from the day of your birth

Religious fanatic from the cradle to the grave
Christian pedophiliac is that your way to save?
Why can't you see beyond the illusion the lie
Just sitting there playing to an empty sky

You are maggots, sheep's that walk in flock
Not able to think on your own
Don't come to me begging for mercy
No fucking remorse, you are going down

Religious fanatic from the cradle to the grave
Christian pedophiliac is that your way to save?
Why can't you see beyond the illusion the lie
Just sitting there playing to an empty sky

I hate you
I curse you
The truth is what I speak
My words is your defeat

Day in day out before your precious icon
Your life is mine to waste
Blindfolded "men" of god
I deny your lords existence!
Holy father nothing more than phantasm
Pestilential lord of lies!

Rise above the storming sea


Shining bright but yet so dark
Full of love but yet so spiteful
Devoted to the mightiest of all powers
I whisper thy name in my dream

Rise above the storming sea
Come forth and unite with me
My goddess of lust and desire
Come forth and release your fire

Mesmerized by your beauty
I gaze into your eyes
Dreaming away, far away
Into another sphere

Shrouded are the pleasures of flesh


There is things about me you don't know
There is feelings in me I'll never show
It's an eerie sound in my head
Why can't I ever sleep?

Insomnia
Dementia
Paranoia
Phobia

Sleepless night I lie alone
Watching writings on the wall
Hour after hour until the light of day
Then with the sun they disappear

It's calling for me in tongues I've never heard
Telling me to kill, telling me to die
Voices in the darkness of my mind
Like a child's painful cry

Other occasions they command me
By terrifying visions of reality
I hope that some day I will be free
Now I'm lost within myself

Growing more deranged by every week
I feel a need to feast upon the weak
Insanity wrapping its arms around me
Enfolded I become enlightened and see

The taste of human flesh so sweet
I can feel the power flow from my hands to my feet

Slit wide open


There seems to be no meaning
There seems to be no hope
There seems to be no meaning
It's time to fetch the rope

These thoughts carve in my mind
The scars they make are eternal
My hate grows stronger each day
The hate towards life and myself

I'm drowning in this vicious river of suicidal thoughts
Stopped struggling for the surface a long time ago

These scars inside of me
Now slit wide open
My life has ceased to be
Now slit wide open

This painful agony
Come death set me free
My life has ceased to be
Now slit wide open

There seems to be no meaning
There seems to be no hope
There seems to be no meaning
It's time to fetch the rope

Is this the last you'll ever hear from me?
This remains to be seen
Does anyone really care?
I know that I don't

These scars inside of me
Now slit wide open
My life has ceased to be
Now slit wide open

This painful agony
Come death set me free
My life has ceased to be
Now slit wide open

Suicidal


I can't close my eyes
Staring straight into the empty sky
Feeling trapped an overfilled with lies
I can't deny
These lovely thoughts of death has crossed my mind

I can't deny
Death is on my mind

I can't close my eyes
I'm feeling trapped inside a world of lies
I can't see what's real it's all disguised
I can't deny
These lovely thoughts of death has crossed my mind

I hate this world
I hate this life

I focus on the strength
The strength I'm building up inside
I feel it growing stronger every day
Strong enough to take my life away

I can't close my eyes
My final rest saved me from all those lies
It's over, I'm free from this pain called life
I can't deny
I'm dead, I'm cold, I'm six feet under ground

I can't deny
I'm dead, I'm cold, it ain't no lie

I focus on the strength
The strength I'm building up inside
I feel it growing stronger every day
Strong enough to take my life away

Suicidal!