But home is nowhere


Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Twenty-six years end, still speaking in these tongues
Such revelations while understood by no one
When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
Please clear the house of ill-aquired taste

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something real

I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle
Everyday another small piece can't be found
I lay strewn across the floor, pieced up in sorrow
The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
Pieced together incomplete and empty

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

3 12


why am i this way?
tell me why?
why am i this way?
why?
open wounds in the palms of my hands,
festering through infections time.
I feel so faint as my life spills over you.
back step over glass as I repent.
I fear I cannot prevent myself
from spilling your life all over me.
go! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Shards of glass swimming in my eyes.
A small voice in the back of my mind
that's whispering words I never want to hear.
I pray that you won't hesitate,
as you watch me degenerate, to reach
in my wounds and extract all of my fear.
yeah! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.

37 MM


Bring your secrets to me,
Just give me your hands,
And I'll let you feel the wounds.
They put in me.

If you believe in me,
How can I be dissolving?
If you'd believe me,
I'd tell you everything.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me?
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

Silence can you hear me?
Press me to your lips,
And I'll suck the poison out.
Who will heal me? me..

If you keep killing me,
How can I keep absolving?
Your sins into me,
Begin the poisoning.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me?
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

Time, time, time,
We're not, waiting.
Time, time, time
We're no one.

[distant:] unknown. unknown.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to?
(try to pacify)

Fall into me
(fall into me)

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are. [in background of this "we are": no one]

6 to 8


Six figures enter; they've come to destroy the world.
They've called together this storm almost every night.
I awake in another place.
A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks more unheard words.
What new friends will the day bring?
One for one thousand acquainted.
What new home will the night bring?
When it all comes down you just throw the bones.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.

A single second


Oh my God! My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
I can't believe all that I have
foreseen is finally happening.
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
I always knew. I always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
I never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing.
I am the once embraced abandoned one.
I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.

A winter's tale


A chilling silence.
A world of violets.
My breath materialized again.
Immaculate.
Inanimate.
A comfort cutting time I see... a string of white lights.
Forever walking through December.
Forever longing for a sign of life, a bringer of light.
Forever wandering together through a world of violets.
Ice everlasting.
A full moon casting a purple veil enshrouding all.
I perambulate, somnambulant.
A solace piercing time I see... a string of white lights.
If only one for night, if only for one night, if only for one night remember.
If only for one night, if only for one night, if only for one night together.

Advances in modern technology


Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps.
I'm giving unease to anyone I meet.
My generosity can never run out, because I give a gift from what's within myself.
No hope at all. Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.
Everyone avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare to look into the eyes of what they most fear.
And they're taught to fear, to fear no evil.
And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves.
No hope at all. Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.
Forever unlucky, cause I'll own tomorrow. Forever unwanted, outcast today.
I'm not mislead, I've got no one to follow. Everywhere to go, no place to stay.
No hope at all. Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.

Affliction


Every night devise
new heights in genocide.
Lover I am loveless.

All my friends and I
toast health and suicide.
Lover, I am lonely.

Come on!

Were you holding hands when
my palms bled?

Oh, I will be alright...
just use me, just use me.
The future's bright without me.
Spend some time walking the line.

World is unified.
Ennui, and I divide.
Lover, I am loveless.

Red days and burning might bleed
'Til the faceless die
Oh, lover I am lonely.

Were you holding hands when
my wrists bled?

Oh I will be all right...
Just use me, just use me.
The futures bright without me
Spend some time walking the line.
Spend some time walking the line.

So stay sweetly numb.
Remain lifeless, love.
Stay sweetly numb.
Maintain lifeless love.

Stay sweetly numb.
Remain lifeless love.

Oh I will be all right...
Just use me, just use me.
The futures bright without me
Spend some time walking the line.
Spend some time walking the line.

Aspirin free


There's no hope of helping us, we've only just begun.
We're youth eternal, nothing more to become.
A thousand lights are burning bright.
Give day a darkened light.
Always burning from both ends.
We're proud of reputations we all own.
Together forever. Rejected but never alone.
Together forever.
I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me.
It's hard for me to comprehend, they couldn't understand
all the thoughts going through our heads.
With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become.
Finally we are numb. We're proud of reputations we all own.
Together forever. Together forever alone.
Together forever.
I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me.
I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me.
No need to. No! No need to feel.
I've got a nothingness and that's all that's real.
No need to cut the numbness inside.
No need to. No! No need to hear.
What you've got to say means nothing at all.
I've got no distance left to fall.
I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me.

At a glance


No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere.
Just like the storm that has come out of thin air.
Gentle caresses, just as paper thin -frail and only- lack the strength to hold.
What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the hours,
or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me?
Fall into open arms that offer their protection.
Quick to deny that their open to deceit.
Long to believe that support will never cease. Bitter and lonely, those they've left before.
The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly growing cold.
Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me.